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Detty

December 09, 2021 @ (West virginia)

Okay so I just broke up with my boyfriend of 5 months 2 days ago. We are both 15. It all started at church camp. My dad is a pastor and he goes to my dadâ€™s friends church who is also a pastor obviously. So we will call my ex Gabe, how it all started was the first night of church camp Gabeâ€™s pastor's son (Elijah) introduced us. I didnâ€™t even give Gabe a second glance. Then that night we just got out of church and it was dark and late and my feet were hurting so bad, so I took off my heels. I was walking out the door and I hadnâ€™t even noticed that he was in front of me. He held the door open for me but I didnâ€™t say thank you, and he said â€œYouâ€™re welcomeâ€ and it went from there. He walked me to my dorm room and he said goodnight. I was head over heels for him now. The next day he was with me all day long. Turns out that he has had a crush on me for 2 years!! Now I just found out who this dude is but that was the main thing that got me was the fact that he had his eye on ME out of all the pretty girls at these things. So two days later he asked me out and I obviously said yes. So church camp was over but we still saw each other. He lived 2 hours away and the first time we met up was at Pittsburgh Zoo because that was like the halfway point for both of us. So everyone knew we are dating at this point. Now we would facetime for like 2 hours every night and we would talk about marriage and what age we would get married, you know like things every young couple talks about. Well everything was going good until last month. He tells me EVERYTHING and a lot of those things he shouldn't have told me. But he told me that his youth pastor said that he needed to let go of something . And I was terrified that it was me. But Gabe told me it wasn't and that it was the fact that he looked at pictures. And I was super upset because I felt that I wasn't good enough for him that is why he looked at pictures cause if I was good enough and pretty enough then he wouldn't need those pictures. I didn't break up with him though. So after that things just weren't right I didn't feel the same about him anymore and I couldn't trust him. I still tried to make it work because he loved me so much. But then I found out that he was telling my ex about my body and some of the things he's seen and things we've said and that drew the line for me because I didn't like how he was trying to make my ex boyfriend jealous. Gabe was too clingy from the start and I was too nice to slow it down. Now I broke up with him 2 days ago and I am really missing him and missing talking to him. I know he is hurting like crazy and that makes me just want to check up on him but I know it will make matters worse if I do.

Carly

October 29, 2021 @ (Southeast Asia)

Tags: Breakup

I was never in a relationship before. It was never in my mind to have a relationship yet. But he came into my life. At first, I ignored him cause I was not comfortable to start a relationship yet but he was persistent and he was patient with me. Until one day, I fell for him completely. We started dating. However, it was just a secret to my parents as they are very strict and wants me to focus on my career first. I thought everything was going well with our relationship then the pandemic came. We were not able to see each other for almost a year, and our relationship started to fall apart. I admit it was my fault. I only seldom message him that time. We got into arguments. Then something happened change our life completely. He got someone pregnant. When we had a fight, he went out with his friends for a drink. He was very upset that time. And he wanted to meet me so badly but i could not. He drank so much that he was so wasted and then he did the thing that ruined our relationship. He slept with someone. After a month, he confessed to me since the girl he slept with claimed she is pregnant. He broke up with me through text. I was so heartbroken when he told me. I was not expecting him to sleep with someone else. I cried so much. I cried everyday still not believing it. Even until now, I still cry. It hurts so much.

Pedro Ramirez Nancy

March 18, 2021 @ (Bangladesh)

Tags: #badbreakup #heartbreak #firstlove

My name is Taylor and now I am 15 years old. Here is my bad break-up story: I was 12 years old and in Grade 5 when this guy named Sam had a crush on me. But as days went He started liking me more and more and then in class 6, he asked me out. And I said YES. 2 months went and then suddenly his mom somehow knew. and then she texted me that I should stop texting his son and that it's all over. I got scared to death as I always feared his mom. (ngl but his mom was very strict so yeah that's why I was always scared. And she was very popular among all the kids' mothers). so the next day, I came to school and I see Sam talking to one of my classmates about how his mom knew and all. and I went up to him and then asked him "Hey, can we talk?", he shouted at me in front of all my classmates "You get out of my sight right now! RIGHT NOW!!", I didn't know what's going on so I left, humiliated. and then so after school was over and it was time for me to head home, Sam came up to me and then told me "Hey that was actually a prank." and I said "what was a prank?", he replied "that mom text" and then I left without replying as it was so lame. he chased me and said that he loved me. and I told him "Aren't we on a break or something?" and he just left, mad and I didn't like that for some reason. made me feel like I couldn't take his joke. so then I went to him and said that I loved him too (which was true btw, I really loved him) and then the next week, his mom again found out that we're still together and then she suddenly came to my school and I had to face her out of nowhere. She told the rest of my classmates' moms that their children should not talk to me as i will make their children bad and that I am toxic. So I eventually lost all my friends. So She started the conversation by saying "I'll slap you and break all your teeth, who do you think you are?" and she continued "do you even know who we are? how stupid of you to even think that I was uneducated like your mother??? Sam's mom and dad aren't uneducated like your parents so know your place. How dare you even run after my son?? I have warned you earlier. Didn't you reply to my text? why did you not listen to my warning? I will make sure that you get expelled from school. Where's the vice principal?" I still don't understand how my parents are involved here. Most of the stuff that she said was about my parents. My parents had nothing to do with this. An just because they are richer, doesn't mean that my parents are "uneducated" just because we aren't as rich as them. I was scared to death. and Sam just stood there. he didn't even stop his mom. and then I was shaking and standing in one corner and then I went home and I couldn't tell anyone as I thought it was actually all my fault.. and then the next day I go to school and I see Sam with his friends, all ready to start an argument with me. I really wanted to talk to him and so I ask him "can we talk?" and he starts his argument by saying "You're so cheap!", I felt bad. He then continues, "Do you guys know what his dad does?? Your parents are uneducated" - and my classmates then shouted "OHH DAMNN SAMM" and I just couldn't take it anymore so I head to the washroom and then my classmates started taking votes like "Sam or Taylor?" and everyone supported Sam. Months go by and we are always in the same classroom. He never stopped bullying me. And then quarantine happened and I am so happy. I feel so happy. But then a few days ago I had to go to school for something and then being back to school made me depressed once again and made me feel bad like all those flashbacks came and the whole week I was depressed. I'm okay now and I will have to face sam one day.
It just hurts so much. I'm in class 8 now and I still haven't moved on.

Zoya

January 18, 2021 @ (Jaipur)

Tags: Toobroken

Broken hearted writing this i hate you i hate you so much,.
Made mefeel like no hope, nothing at all
The sweet words turned to ff words. Its not changing a guy its like you were same fro bigginning but i never realized with my eyes
When i ask myself i only got tears ntg elseand i just want to shut the door and simply cry over thats it. It all started in front of god but yet he keep his silence.When i met you first i had never realized how much i could love a guy but tdy wrting this why for god sake i met you.
You made me feel like i lived two years with you unloved just for your time pass. Bcz of u i lost my career and lost hope.Actually i lost my hope in god too. You have every thing and every one around you but why did you made me alone, I pushed my friends away and the thoughts thts in my head never rests bcz of you i made 3 times sucidal attempts but god saved me for more suffering and making me see you with someone else.
All you did was nothing just to hurt, once you controlled me said you loved me and protected me, then left me for higher study - said your father wont agree with you, then you put your frnds around me to keep an eye on me, then you fall with someone else, you started fighting for blaming me and then all of a sudden i was the one who made all the things bad in your life so the break up initiated.
Whts wrong with me why did you do this to me were the exact words i asked him.
He replied in cold tht he left me and it was over no point in arguing over the past and further told me he never truely loved me.I know my mistake,may be being loyal and expecting the same from you, little bit of understanding and bit of true love i guess, the time .
There is no hope. May god bless you even if you have thousands of gffs.
If anyone reading this plz be honest with your gf even the bitter truth can't hit her hear but your hidden lie does.

Christine

November 08, 2020 @ (USA )

Tags: Bad breakup

It's been a month since I realized it had all been a lie. It was easy to trust him because we had a mutual friend little did I know that was my ticket to hell. We had been friends on Facebook for over an year but we never talked then one day he reaches out and from there on the rest was history. The beginning was amazing. We had so much in common not only in what we liked but also in out careers. We talked for hours on the phone and I remember being the happiest person until I was not. Throughout the seven months we were together he was seeing me and another woman who he had denied and swore on his mothers name that she was just a person he knew. He denied even when some of his friends told me it was all true. I remember being so devastated it felt as if I was losing my mind. I was so angry at myself. I felt so much anger I couldn't be around people and I still am. I have been trying to understand why he chose to do this to me. I was having a peaceful life a couple of months ago now I don't even remember how that felt like. I hope one day I wake up and stop crying. Stop blaming myself for being stupid and easily lied to. I just don't know how I will be able to trust again.

Psyoptica

September 30, 2020 @ (Karachi)

Tags: No relationship breakup

I met her about 3 and a half years ago online. We soon became friends. She lived in the same city as me and we met once before she moved to Australia. Our friendship continued to grow. We talked frequently but it never turned into anything romantic until 3 years later.
I started to develop a romantic interest in her and thought about proposing her to marry me. That idea solidified in my mind and I finally picked up the courage to ask her. She didnâ€™t say yes right away but few days later she gave a nod.
We continued to talk now even more frequently than before. She made me laugh, I made her laugh. My life became much more exciting and fun. She always messaged me or called first if for some reason there was a communication gap which never lasted more than a day.
Fast forward 4 months into this, she told me that her family was looking to get her married. It didnâ€™t bother me at first but when she told me that she was gonna meet with the guy who her family set up for her, that got me really worried and mad her for not saying no. She was willing to move forward with the marriage potential and I tried to talk her out of it but it didnâ€™t really work. I ended up losing a lot of self respect in my desperate attempt to to stop her. She gave a hundreds of excuses as to why she didnâ€™t wanna say no and at the same time she didnâ€™t give me a clear answer to what she wanted.
This really hurt me because she was the one who pulled me into it. If she didnâ€™t lead me on from the beginning, I wouldnâ€™t have invested my tome and effort into her.
Our last conversation didnâ€™t really end up on a bad note but I sure did lose a lot of attraction she had for me because of me acting weird and desperate.
I decided to never talk to her again and move on with my life. Itâ€™s been 2 days and Iâ€™m really struggling with my thoughts and emotions but I know I will move on from this.

Tracey

October 29, 2019 @ (South Carolina )

Tags: #badbreakup

I was with this boy much younger than I was at the time. We were together for 2 or three months. Then, he started talking to me less and less, until I confronted him and he said he wasnâ€™t interested anymore. I offered to fix things and we did. 2 weeks went by and we met outside to talk because we havenâ€™t in days. I went outside and we spoke on a gated playground outside my house. Then, he says that he wants to break up for three weeks and then get back together because â€œit will be better for us â€œ so I said okay. I knew all along that it was over in my mind. But three weeks went by and he never spoke to me again. He really just wanted to break up forever.

Chaalz

August 12, 2019 @ (-)

Tags: bad breakup hurt love

Well i was always looking for a soulmate where i will spend my life only with her, i found her in a social media, got together for 4 years, She is a lecturer in a university and very professional with her work and duty, i just feel like she is the one for me, very caring, loving and we do fight frequently because every relationships have fights, i have met her parents and she have met mine, we have actually decided to get married in 1 year as we discussed, but while time was passing by i literally been dreaming that she with a another dude, i asked her regarding this dream, she kept ignoring and change the topic, on the following week i decided to spy on her activites by following her everywhere she goes, then late in the everning caught her hugging a guy and heading to a hotel, i followed and caught both of them naked having fun with each other, i was totally broken, i could not bare with the pain and the thing i see, she never bothered to say sorry, but what she could say that was just a casual fun with the dude, i kept trying to forget her even my family loves her so much, Even it have been 1 year now,i am yet trying to move on but i failed, i am still stuck with the broken love.

A Guy Who Belived In True Love

April 14, 2019 @ (Somewhere)

Tags: breakups depression

Hey, im a guy in my twenties and i meet this girl who is 20 years old this year last summer. I have been together with her since then into recently. She have struggled with depression and school, and she told me she wanted to break up and be alone. She did this twice and came back twice after 1-2 weeks. Long story short, but i just keep wondering because today she told me it is over like really over. And i have tryed everything, like literaly anything. It has even gone out on my mental health, because i have tryed so hard to make things right. Everytime i tryed to move on then she was there again but now it seems like its over for good. I have had the best time of my life with this girl, and i dont want to realise that this is true. I have always belived in true love, much like in the disney movies kinda, and my parents have been together since they where at my age. Im a very sensetiv and empatic guy who just want to find someone to build a life with, its like my missing piece in life. So i wonder. I have never given up on anyone i have been together in, in my life. Is that strange? Its like im so in love and i would do anything to be with that person. Can a person love you even when they leave you because of depression and timing in life. Because this girl has said that to me several times, still this is compliated to tell and its a short story of the whole picture but i wonder about those questions. Is it strange that i want to build a life with the girl i love even if im in my tweenties? Is it true love when i never give up on someone? But i have never seen that in any girl og friends i have or have been with. Im i just weird?

Bad Luck

September 18, 2018 @ (Bulgaria)

Tags: Bad breakup, Cancer

Me and my girlfriend broke up this April after nearly 4 years of being together. Last October I was diagnosed with testicular cancer and had to undergo surgery (unfortunately lost one of my soldiers) and go to chemo. When this news came we had recently moved in together, but I had to return to my home town for treatment for about half an year. In that span of time she came to visit me 2 times and I went to visit her 2 times. Initially she was hesitant to come when I said that I will have to go through an operation. Her excuses were more than laughable - she had too much work in uni, I was too far away, couldn't we communicate through Viber, she though that this was a routine operation..... whatever that means. At least I think they are laughable, if the situation was in reverse I wouldn't hesitate to put everything on hold. So 6 month later I am fine, alive and kicking and when I return to her the first thing she literally said was ''Hi! We need to talk. I want to break-up with you''. She stated that she had learned to be alone for this time and thought our relationship was stagnating (which I have to agree with). Three-four months after we separated she has a new boyfriend. To whoever might read this - value your life, value your dignity, value yourself. For if you do not, nobody else will. If you do not live for yourself, nobody else will. I might come across as an egoist, but after this ordeal, life taught me that you have to an egoist, otherwise you will make compromises with no clear gain. God Bless and good luck to everybody. May you be spared such an experience!