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Tee

August 21, 2025 @ (Canada)

I was with my ex for 8 years and I had left him abruptly once before. The first time I left him, I started losing attraction for him when I started becoming part of a new social circle. I had a new job. I was making money. I met other pretty girls. And when my boyfriend came around, they weren't impressed. I started stooping to their level. I started seeing what they saw and not what I fell in-love with. I became embarrassed of him. I stopped bringing him around, I started lying to him. And there was a new guy in the group that the girls ultimately convinced me to hook up with. I became a cheater.

I had sex with the guy, instantly I became obsessed with him. I dumped my ex over a quick text.

Looking back I don't know why I was so obsessed. I guess new sex always had a better orgasm. I think I became addicted to that. My ex cried around trying to convince me to stay. But at that point I just wanted him to go away. I treated him bad.

I dated this guy for 6 months. All we ever did was fight, and he became abusive. He beat me up several times. But the sex always fixed everything. I seemed to become addicted to the cycle of makeup sex.

Eventually it came to an end after things got to violent. I went back to my ex.

But I just didn't feel what I once did. I lost respect for him because he waited for me to go back. It just made me look at him like a wimp. A beta . I felt so unattached. Even though I caused all this. And he, he just pretended like nothing happened.

I tried to love him again. But I just felt nothing. I disrespected him, I belittled him, I guess deep down I just wanted him to dump me so I had an excuse to get out again.

Well I ended up getting pregnant and we had a baby. Suddenly things that mattered to me, like other girls opinions of my relationship. No longer mattered, all I cared about was my baby.

But I've or baby turned two. I started going out again. And the same girls started whispering toxic shit in my ears. And I started disrespecting him again. And drinking, n doing cocaine. I fell right back into the same ol' cycle. And when I would go home. I would see him sitting there on the couch. I would just snap on him. It passed me off just seeing him always waiting for me.

I ended up breaking up with him on year 8. I couldn't live the lie anymore. I didn't want him. I did find another guy again. I needed a new guy to pay the bills. I didn't plan on staying with him. My ex tried again to save our relationship. But I did some shit to scare him away for good.

I know I'm the villain in my breakup story

Why was I like this, why am I still like this.

I feel like I never really fit in growing up, and God made me beautiful for the shitty upbringing I had. And that when other girls saw my beauty. I felt like that was a sign that I finally found my place. Even of it meant listening to their toxicity.

I discarded my ex like trash. And he's a great dad to our daughter. I just cannot stop being bitter towards him. I can't stop resenting him. It doesn't make sense because he didn't do anything wrong.

Maybe I just can't stand him becoming successful. Or happy. Maybe I'm not happy.

I dunno but that's my story

Zoya

January 18, 2021 @ (Jaipur)

Tags: Toobroken

Broken hearted writing this i hate you i hate you so much,.
Made mefeel like no hope, nothing at all
The sweet words turned to ff words. Its not changing a guy its like you were same fro bigginning but i never realized with my eyes
When i ask myself i only got tears ntg elseand i just want to shut the door and simply cry over thats it. It all started in front of god but yet he keep his silence.When i met you first i had never realized how much i could love a guy but tdy wrting this why for god sake i met you.
You made me feel like i lived two years with you unloved just for your time pass. Bcz of u i lost my career and lost hope.Actually i lost my hope in god too. You have every thing and every one around you but why did you made me alone, I pushed my friends away and the thoughts thts in my head never rests bcz of you i made 3 times sucidal attempts but god saved me for more suffering and making me see you with someone else.
All you did was nothing just to hurt, once you controlled me said you loved me and protected me, then left me for higher study - said your father wont agree with you, then you put your frnds around me to keep an eye on me, then you fall with someone else, you started fighting for blaming me and then all of a sudden i was the one who made all the things bad in your life so the break up initiated.
Whts wrong with me why did you do this to me were the exact words i asked him.
He replied in cold tht he left me and it was over no point in arguing over the past and further told me he never truely loved me.I know my mistake,may be being loyal and expecting the same from you, little bit of understanding and bit of true love i guess, the time .
There is no hope. May god bless you even if you have thousands of gffs.
If anyone reading this plz be honest with your gf even the bitter truth can't hit her hear but your hidden lie does.

A

December 15, 2020 @ (USA)

Tags: Messy breakup

My childhood crush would compare me to her exes, describe the sex she had with them, and one in particular (who was a ramp walk model) she'd say was a Greek god and wanted him to give her genetically perfect children. She would also sleep with my other childhood friends and cheated on me with my brother on my birthday.

Turned me into an anti-commitment person singlehandedly.

Stay single people!

Sud

March 11, 2019 @ (Delhi)

Tags: Breakup

I did mistakes in my 5 year relationship. Bcoz karma catches you after years as I was not good since last 4 years... Since 8 months I am trying to improve,but my ex gf (supposedly to be wife) did not want me. I feel depressed. Now she is with someone else...it hurts a lot....but I think my karma was bad...now my karma is better since 6 months.....I believe in God....God don't gives you want, he gives you what you deserve,....

Bad Luck

September 18, 2018 @ (Bulgaria)

Tags: Bad breakup, Cancer

Me and my girlfriend broke up this April after nearly 4 years of being together. Last October I was diagnosed with testicular cancer and had to undergo surgery (unfortunately lost one of my soldiers) and go to chemo. When this news came we had recently moved in together, but I had to return to my home town for treatment for about half an year. In that span of time she came to visit me 2 times and I went to visit her 2 times. Initially she was hesitant to come when I said that I will have to go through an operation. Her excuses were more than laughable - she had too much work in uni, I was too far away, couldn't we communicate through Viber, she though that this was a routine operation..... whatever that means. At least I think they are laughable, if the situation was in reverse I wouldn't hesitate to put everything on hold. So 6 month later I am fine, alive and kicking and when I return to her the first thing she literally said was ''Hi! We need to talk. I want to break-up with you''. She stated that she had learned to be alone for this time and thought our relationship was stagnating (which I have to agree with). Three-four months after we separated she has a new boyfriend. To whoever might read this - value your life, value your dignity, value yourself. For if you do not, nobody else will. If you do not live for yourself, nobody else will. I might come across as an egoist, but after this ordeal, life taught me that you have to an egoist, otherwise you will make compromises with no clear gain. God Bless and good luck to everybody. May you be spared such an experience!

N

January 23, 2018 @ (usa)

Tags: fuck you

it was the beginning of my junior year when i met levi, well, sort of. it was like a dream come true because the year before that, he didnâ€™t know i existed while i was admiring him every time i saw him in school. iâ€™ve always thought he was cute but never did i think i was going to have a chance since he was popular. we were talking for about a month before we started dating. a couple months go by and we started arguing day and night. he got mad at me for the littlest things and it got to a point where i would always get anxious about what i would do and if it would make him mad or not. he started getting cold towards me. hurting my feelings, giving me the silent treatment, ignoring me for hours. may 8, 2016 was the dreaded day we broke up. it didnâ€™t take him long before he started flirting with girls and having sex. it hurt me in ways no one can imagine. month after we broke up, we tried to kick it back together. it just didnâ€™t work out. i look back and i thank god everyday for giving me a life lesson on what to look for in a guy. a real man wouldnâ€™t move on quickly if this relationship was real. but little does he know that my current boyfriend is the same man iâ€™ve been hooking up with while him

N

January 23, 2018 @ (usa)

Tags: fuck you

Thebrokish

June 12, 2017 @ (New zealand)

Tags: Bad breakup, cheating, drama

It's been 2 years since I broke up with my then love of my life, we were stupidly in love and I mean this with every iota of my being. We were physical in ways I hadn't been with another and the talking god we talked till morning...this went on and on, I hope it would never end problem was I ran outta interesting things to say I guess we just got comfortable...well I did I hadn't really had that kinda relationship. Well things keep progressing and she changed...now don't get me wrong she could of grown a second head and I'd still love her. But then the accusations started first it was people on the street then it changed to her work mates...after that no one was safe her flat mates my flat mates... it started getting real toxic... it ended with her getting physical with me ie fists on face I've never hit a woman but in that moment I came close we broke that night...part 2 and 3 too come yep we got back together what can I say I loved her.

Jade

May 13, 2017 @ (Canada)

Tags: Funny break up

I loved him or I just liked his fluffy hair I really have no idea. So when I got home to find a a bouqet of the flowers I'm ALLERGIC to I just walked up the stars in the room and found him in bed reading a book, I grab the book and just say "what nice flowers" he says "thx they are for my mom when she comes over" I yell at him for God knows what reason probably because I love flowers and can't get enough of them and that he made plans without me oh and let's not forget HE IS AN IDIOT. He gets up and asks me what's wrong the thing that is wrong was that he never got me flowers and never spoke to me and only his MOM so I just said see yah loser I'm going to get mmy self some flowers and get a new boyfriend cause mine needs a new brain! With that I was gone and he was just standing there motionless oh and I ripped up the flowers ðŸ˜‚

Henrywilson

March 12, 2017 @ (Vermont)

Tags: first girlfriend, broken heart, love, sad

Im 16 and I met my first girlfriend at summer camp. She was 15, had short blonde hair and was always really funny and energetic. During one of the dances I asked her to dance during the song Forever Young only because I had heard an offhand rumor that she liked me. I had no idea what it would become. I loved talking to her because we were both really talkative and she never lost interest in my long stories. Over two weeks of summer camp we really grew to like each other. Only one problem, she lived in DC, I lived in vermont. At first i thought long distance was stupid but after two weeks I would do anything to keep her in my life. That lasted 4 1/2 months, I even flew in for a weekend to see her (i dont know how I convinced my parents to pay for that one). During that trip she told me she loved me which was the happiest moment of my life. We talked for hours every night and even during school. She really was my best friend.

Then December 18, 2016 came along. Everything seemed great until she told me she had been talking to one of her friends about our relationship, I thought "eh whatever", then she just stopped snapchating me (which was strange because she would never ever do that without an explanation). Then I looked at me phone 3 hours later and there it was. The breakup text.

In that moment, every bit of happiness drained out of my life. I felt like a shell of a person. It sounds crazy now but at the time I genuinely thought I was gonna go to college with her and we would get married. I didnt ever want to go back to the god awful world of high school dating and I thought I had found my way out for good.

I still sometimes have nightmares about her with another guy even though shes probably dating a girl now (shes bi). I dont stalk her facebook feed because id rather remain blissfully ignorant. Not sure ill ever meet another girl like her.