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Corine

October 03, 2010 @ (wisconsin)

I was dating this guy, and he was great. He was everything that i thought i ever needed. We fell in love, and we made so many plans that all sounded so great at the time. We had kind of a long distance thing going on, because he was two hours away. We didn't see eachother as much as i would have liked too. I want to be able to be with my boyfriend, and kiss him, and hug him, not just talk to him over the phone. Ya know? So i told him that. He asked me what i wanted to do, and i said i didnt know-when i clearly did. I wanted to break up until we could see eachother more often. As you can imagine, this was very hard for me to say. He was my world, and my everything. I loved him, and i guess i still do. but thats besides the point. He said he agreed, and it was the best for us. He promised we would talk everyday still, and he would always love me. I believed him. Which was dumb of me. Now, we bearly talk. It's like there's this empty space in me that just wont go away.. I miss him. Horribly. Things just arn't the same, and I wish they were. I probably brought it on myself, but.. he could have held up to what he said he would do.

Mac Mulla

September 28, 2010 @ (San Diego)

Tags: Cheating, Pregnancy, BreakUp

Me And My Girlfriend Have Now Been Knowing Each Other For 5 Years, We Met Back In 05' She Was "Wife Material" I Had Made It Clear On How I Felt About Her. However At The Time Gang Violence Was At A High In My Neighborhood So My Family Moved Me To Atlanta(The Other Side Of The U.S.). With Such Distance Between Us The Relationship Weakened And We Broke Up. Seeing How I Was Only 16 And She Was 18 You Would Figure. A Month Later I Called Her And She Was Pregnant, I Was Soo Hurt That This Girl I Stayed Faithful To, Had Moved On So Fast With Such A Big Step. . .Last Year I Moved Back Here To San Diego 09' We Seen Eachother, Messed Around, Had A Baby! It Seems We Have Grown Alot Since 16-18 were 23-22 "Her Bdays Next Month" But Since The Feeling Of Being Betrayed By The First Birth Of My Girlfriend I Find It Hard To Fully Trust Her. Around Friends, Family, Her-Friends I Might Not Noe About Pratically Any Opposit. Im Saying When I was 15-16 Everyone Was A Big Player And Pimping And Carrying On, I Was Too, But I Put All That Aside For This Lady Who Now Has My Baby And All It Took Was On Month Of Absence And She HAd A Child WIth Another Man! How Can I GEt Past That? (She Also Had Sex With A Close Relative)

K

September 21, 2010 @ (otown)

Tags: huh

ok sooo me and my boyfriend were together for three and a half years. he cheated on me once within that time period and i truly felt like i had gotten over that, but apparently i guess i didnt. i would find myself looking thru his fone and lookin at the phone bill to see if anything looked suspicious. looking back on that i kno i was wrong. if i trusted him i wouldnt have felt the need to do all that. but anyway i noticed a number comin up on our bill like crazy so i asked him whos number it was and he told me the name of a girl that like fucked everyone and their cousin in orlando. and shes known for sucking dick. wellll after that he tells me he can no longer be with me because i dont trust him and he cant trust himself. he doesnt ever want to hurt me and he thinks us being a part is the best medicine. jus like that after 3 years? wow i seriously think he jus wants to have sex with this hoe. who probably has NO walls.

Niece

September 17, 2010 @ (Clarksville)

Tags: Love Sucks

well it started about a month ago i was dating this guy who i figured was dating me becuase he wanted sex but i convinced myself if really did love me. he had given me deadlines if when we should have sex but i continued to tell him that i didn't know if i was ready to have sex again. so he keep telling me i should go get my sexual needs satisfied. i kept telling him that it would be wrong for me to do that since i was dating him but he said it was ok as long as i was happy. i never did it so he got off the subject. then yesterday all of a sudden he wanted to have sex with me but i turned him down and he broke up with me. today he texted me and was acting like nothing happened so i got alittle anger. then he told me the only reason he broke up with me because i didn't have sex with him. i think i might have really loved him bit he won't have me because i won't have sex.

Karma !!

September 16, 2010 @ (glendvielle)

Tags: example2

ight my story started about a month when i got back from college for the summer me and my girl was very happy together and we been dating for about 2 years and some months. i can honestly say we were in love because we texted each other everyday and we was always together when i was home, she slept over my house biscially everynight and i try doing little things for her jus to make her happy. but everything went down hill when she negin to hang out with certian friends and some dudes that didnt like me and they was puttinq lots of bullshit in her head about me biscally telling her i was cheating on her and all tht. and unfortunaly she believed them and not trusting me she up and left me one day over a text message i was very hurt becuz she was my everything and she jus up and left me after everything i gived up for her. also she supposely left me becuse her friends and fam thought she made a cute couple with some other kid i cried over her for days calling and texting her but she ignore my phone calls and even changed her number on me i tried my best to get over her but couldnt.. months went by and now im back at school a new man with a bright future ahead of me, and suddenly one day she text me saying she made a mistake and she regret ever leaving me & i felt bad becuz i really love her and i still had some feelins for her but when i sat down a thought about everything she had put me through crying over her and all tht i decided to stand my ground and not fall for her again so i simply told her that i was all set & tht im focusing on school but we could be friends and she agreed but she was really sad another month went by and ive found someone else who makes me happy and when im with this person i dont even think of her!! i spoke to couple of my friends from back home and they said she found out about me and this other girl and she's going crazy knowing i no longer care about her she calls me everything and hangs up wen i pick up she constantly text me saying she loves me and asking me would i ever come bakk to her but i dont respond becuz i believe when one dooor close jus ask god cuz theres always another one open for you !! NOW LOOK AT HER PATHETIC GURL LMAO

NeedsHelp

September 12, 2010 @ (WestCoast)

Tags: Tags

My girlfriend of 9 years broke up with me to be with an old high school friend. The sad part is that I have a feeling that they will eventually get married within the next year or so. I’m absolutely crushed like never before. We’ve had our share of problems throughout our relationship and unfortunately it’s mostly my fault. I feel so stupid for taking her for granted.

We met in college back in 2001 and it started out as the most beautiful thing in this world that either of experienced. We were soul mates and were certain that we’d be together forever. It was like we were two peas in a pod, amongst a campus full of strangers and were very happy we found one another. It didn’t take us but 6 months to move in together we were so in love. However, after graduating college, I struggled for years, and was depressed even, to find a job. She supported us for most of our relationship as she was blessed with a wonderful career as an exceptional community organizer, which she now serves as the executive director of her organization. Me on the other hand, struggled immensely to find my passion, and had several dead end low paying jobs.. This was emotionally hard on me, and most certainly on her. However, we would make the best of our situation by taking various trips around the country and enjoying the natural bond we had for one another. We didn’t have to take trips really we enjoyed staying home together, whether we were intimately conversing about any topic or making passionate love. However, my career struggles took a severe toll on our relationship. I even went through a period of alcohol abuse, which lasted a couple of years. Eventually, after 4 great years she began to loose interest in me, and cheated on me a few times. Although I was obviously crushed, I took her back because I loved her so so much and believed we could work through anything, plus I always envisioned her as the mother of my kids. Fast forward to January 2008, I eventually found a job which pays great and I absolutely love-- finally I’m able to support us and feel good about myself in that regard. We celebrated the entire 2008 in the name of my success and life seemed golden--finally my career struggle was over! Unfortunately I started to drink again and lied several times about it and thus undermining any trust left. At that time, she started to give me warnings that I had to stop or else she’d leave. Fortunately I finally stopped, but we would still argue. She also began to voice, starting in mid-June of this year, that she was growing unsatisfied in our relationship and that we needed to talk. I unfortunately kept prolonging “the talk” and became slightly tuned out every time she said it. Beginning of August I noticed she started to act suspect: she seemed to pay more attention to sending text messages on her smart phone than being in my company. So, I naturally had a hunch something was wrong, so I checked her work email and noticed she made reservations at hotel to be with some random guy, the weekend I was going out of town visit college friends in LasVegas. To make a long painful story short, I confronted her about it over the phone while she was at work, she became shell-shocked that I found out and started crying. We hang up and she eventually came home from work. The first thing she said was we should break up… and that I should‘ve talked to her but now it‘s too late we have to break up. I’m begging and pleading for her to get her to change her mind, and that we should talk now, but she insisted we should break up. The next day I go to work, come back home and she’s gone. I call her and she said we shouldn’t be around each other anymore and one of us needs to move out. Now I’m in further disbelief and shock. What follows after that is even more painful drama, trauma rather, and would take another 500 words or so to explain but I‘ll save the detail--it’s bad.. In short, she’s been at a friends house for the past 3 weeks looking for a place and blocked my number from her cell phone, it turns out this random guy is an old high school friend and they are in a intimate partnership. She even hinted that they are talking about marriage. Meanwhile I’ve been alone in our old apartment reminiscing, broken-hearted but refusing to let go, looking at old pictures and her belongings, under an unbearable amount of sorrow, loss of appetite and motivation, deteriorating self-esteem and ego. I’ve been reading passages from Psalms to make it through the day. My life feels like it’s over.

Nana

September 09, 2010 @ (california)

Tags: 1

okay so i've been with my boyfriend for almost 2 years. well ex-boyfriend now. we have a baby girl together, she is about to be ten months. okay so we don't live together & i had thrown away a whole bunch of baby bottles. & i only had 2 i lost one & the other one was in my moms truck & she wasnt home. so i called my bf to go buy me a bottle because of what happened so he said "i dont have a ride & my mom isn't here she has my money" & i clicked & called him ack a whole bunch of times but he wouldnt answer so i called his cousin asking for my bfs mothers cell # he said he didnt have it & i was like hes acting like a little bitch whenever he needs a ride he gets it whenever he needs money he gets it. so i told my bf i dont want you near me or my baby. we dont need you so i called my friend & asked him to get me a bottle from safeway & he did ut before that my bf calls me and says you dont want me to take the bottle i said no its fine & he says fuck you bitch fuck you nigga & more stuff so i just hang up. & he keeps sending me texts so i told him i need space & he has to show me he wants us & show me he didnt mean it & he has to try hard if not im so gone!

Saharica

September 01, 2010 @ (nepal)

Tags: guy, girl

This happened like a week ago..
i am 16
My boyfriend though was of my same age had failed and so i was labelled as a senior...
he liked me.. and later things went on and we felt in love with each other...
he was possessive about me an over possessive one..
He had problem with everything i did.. He didnt like it when i talked to guys..
things were smooth when suddenly one day his parents decided to send him to india for his further studies...we thought we could cope up...he went...he'd cried before he left...
things were fine...
he used to mail me once in a blue because his scool was a strict one...
and then it happened.. they had their first weekend after 50 days...
3 days of being free and i thought he would call me and we would have a nice time ..
but then later found out that his dad had been there and they were persuading him to break up with me... for once i and his mother had met and i dont know how.. some people said stuffs like she's not a nice girl she has links with soo many boys to his parents...
he called me up told me none of his family members like me.. and his father wanted him to change his password...
laster he did change his password i felt bad,,,
the last day before he could return to his hostel.. we both talked online...
and we were okay.. suddenly he just stood up away from the cam and i could just hear his voice in the phone"bitch all you know is how to be horny you think i wanna see your face ever again.. you'll soon be a graduate and i just a pass-out we have no future "
how could he do that to me... when i am soo in love with him just because his parents wanted him to...
we've had sex for about eight times and when i asked him about that he was like people will call u a cheap girl if they find out where did we had sex...
how could he??
will he come back??
i want him to come back...
i have this hope in within that he still loves me and is doing this just under his parents' pressure what do i do ????

NanjiroEchizen

August 22, 2010 @ (Canada)

Tags: Phone Break-Up, Pregnant... Not

Ok, so basically I spent the better part of 2 years with this girl that was REALLY hard to get because we were really only dating for 4 1/2 months of that time span... So anyways it started out great, then the sex was gradually added on... But she has an extreme anxiety disorder about a lot of things, one of which include dating (don't as me why, everyone says she's a nutjob for having this)... So she was having all of this attack and stuff because she was late... Now I do not know what she's she scared about, I NEVER came inside... In fact she wasn't even that good in bed so there really shouldn't have been this problem... But no, she starts isolating herself and making me really frustrated because I wanted to badly see her (I was on a co-op placement, so I was away from school for 4 days a week) but she wouldn't allow me... So then she had her period, and I thought everything would be back to normal but then she suddenly said that she didn't feel the same anymore, blah blah blah and broke up with me over the phone... I was shocked so I tried other ways to contact her but I was blocked, so I did some more drastic things and her sister stepped in and everything became a huge mess... Now I really resent her for everything she put me through and for not giving me closure, and it looks like Karma already did its job because she lost ALL of her friends after hearing what she did to me

Ashes

August 11, 2010 @ (Canada)

Tags: sad, depressing

My boyfriend (now ex) started dating in my first year of highschool. It was one of those highschool relationships that you see on the movies, and who every teenage girl hopes to have. We were together all through out highschool. He was so in love with me. Honestly, Im pretty sure I could of gotten away with anything and he would always come back to me. A lot of it had to do with the fact that we were eachothers first time and lust/love was being thrown around together. But at the end of the day we really did love eachother and we had something that some people will never ever experience. We were best friends. We knew every single thing about eachother. It was a relationship where I could take a crap infront of him and that wasnt a problem at all! haha! at one point he even moved away for half a year and still we some how made it work. But then, oh i forgot to mention he is a year older than me! anyways, he started university and I was in my last year of highschool. Thats when everything changed. We had always had our problems. his was honesty issues, mine where anger issues. But once he moved on, it was like we were completley different people! I know... if any of you are reading this you are probably thinking my story is pretty boring. he never cheated on me with my sister, or i never left him at the alter. We were just two regular people who were at one moment so in love... to not even knowing who eachother were. I guess im writing this because im so depressed and bitter with the reality of relationships and life in General. We ended up breaking up because our lives and our relationships became so routine. We new that we loved eachother but we were stuck making time to see eachother to make love with one another, to make sure we set enough time to have a phone conversation once a day, made sure we sent eachother at least 10 txts a day to make sure our days were going alright. It was horrible and I was unhappy, and because I was unhappy we fought... all the time. So those "dates" turned into a boxing ring. So eventually I had to end it. that was about around last christmas. I didnt blame him, nor did I blame myself. I blamed our situation. He was in Univserity and leading a completley different life than me, I was enjoying my last year of highschool. But since we broke up, I have had a few flings, slepted with a random, tried to pretend that those guys could at some point mean something to me, but at the end of the day, it was always him, and I feel as if it will ALWAYS be him. But again, it hurts me so much to see how things change... it wasnt supposed to turn out this way. I am now moving to Europe in a few weeks for a year, he has a new girlfriend( who is horrible) and we went from being so happy and to not being able imagine our selves without eachother, to leading completley different lives without eachother in them. Am I still in love with him- Yes. most definatley... if he magicaly asked me to be with him again would i say yes-No. Definatly not. I wish i could of met him in 5 years.. thats what i always told him. I wish we met in a different life where we could be with eachother and love eachother completley without having such barriers set up between us, masking the love we had for eachother. I cry at night, i miss him every night. I dont want to leave without him touching me, kissing me, looking me in te eyes one last time. But i know thats not possible. i want him to be able to move on, all i want is for him to be happy. He deserves it.