Tags: broken heart, lost love
There was this girl. I had known her for years and years. I met her in 5th grade and ever since then we became friends. We wouldn't talk much but we'd always have something to say to each other. We grew up...her becoming gorgeous day by day and me realizing how much this girl knows me. We'd literally sit for hours talking about our lives and our beliefs. She had a cold outside, but inside she was warm and sweet as sugar. She went out with my best friend at one time and I didn't mind. I always felt she would come back to me. So I waited. 2 long years I waited until finally all those times of going to her house to have sandwiches got to me, all those times of sitting in class cracking on everyone else got to me, all those times of hanging out and generally loving each others presence got to me......I fell in love...or so I thought. I felt perfect. Everything was right. Just being in her presence took away all my demons, my frustrations, my unwavering pathetically insignificant life. I felt like a person in front of her. Like I mattered. I fell in love with my dream girl.
But then things got different. She went to college and hooked up wit some dude...She swore it was a mistake and that it was the first time she had gotten drunk. My dumbass believed her. Why? Because I believe in HER and ME...together. I told her we'd work through this. A couple months later, she told me she had to break it off because her parents didn't approve of me even though they had known me my entire life. They thought I was unpredictable and was going no where in life just because I wasn't becoming a doctor. She told me her parents didn't approve and I believed her. We broke up and God did it fuckin hurt. I couldn't talk to her, email her, nothing. She said her parents knew about us and were making sure I didn't call her. I lost touch with her. My best friend told me he went to go see her to console her because he knew we were both going through a hard time. He came to my place afterwards and TO MY FACE told me that nothing happened. After that, I went to India.
When I came back, I lost my soul, my heart, and my general appreciation for love. My best friend, who has known me just as long as she did, tells me that the day he went to go see her...something did happen. I was a broken man. In one swift move, I lost any connection to my love and my true friend. I cursed her for breaking my heart and for doing something this cruel. As for my best friend, I forgave him with my brain but not my heart. Both of them hurt me in ways I didn't know humans could be hurt. I had done no harm to any of them. I showed them love when everyone else showed hate.
The story goes on. My best friend went on...back to his old girlfriend. She forgave him and they moved on. And for her...she has a new boyfriend. A douche. Some fuck who will probably end up worse off.
My entire perception of people changed that day. I don't know if I should put more trust in strangers or in friends. At least strangers won't lead you on when they fuck your shit up.
I'll admit. I had my faults. Maybe I was going too fast with it and I jumped into things. but I truly felt this was it. My dumbass never felt so stupid in my entire life. I should've calmed down and played it slowly. She told me it wasn't gonna work, but I told her we'd make it work. I just never knew I was the only one workin at it.
I've had so much shit hit me in my life. Car accidents, fist fights, fights at home, fights with friends, broken bones, shattered eyes, surgeries, deaths, fires, rejection, loneliness, isolation...and yet. the only thing that ever REALLY hurts me...is a broken heart.
Tags: asshole
So I start dating this guy for about 2 years but I should have known better because my friends and family kept telling me he was a jerk and I should have known better because he told me not to love me after we had sex the first time but anyhow we were dating for a year when he went out with his girl friends which I knew who had the hots for him (they were too obvious) and he ended up making out with both of them that night. I should have broke up with him right! nope was stupid. I did broke up with him a couple of weeks before my birthday but a couple of weeks later after I had slept with another guy he wanted me back, begging and telling me how he would be different this time. Moved with him to another state and stayed another year which is another stupid move. Then he got reunited with a high school friend and I should have known because well they were hanging out a lot and he picked her up a lot but I wanted to trust him. Finally I wanted to end it even though I didn't want to so I send him an email so we can talk about it when I get home. So when we did talk about it you know what he told me, that he's been wanting to break up but he wanted me to finish the semester to spare my feelings. Asshole but that's not the worst part. A couple of days after I broke down and call my mother and told her I wanted go back home you know what he told me "Are you done crying", know what I did, I punched him in the nose a couple of hours after when he was sitting in his computer playing world of warcraft. Never regretted it and I am so glad I punch his ass because it was unexpected and I hurt him good that he slept upstairs because he was scared of me. He is still single not surprising, I'm not and about to get married next year, boy do karma works.
So my dirty ex-girlfriend was a year older than me. She wanted me to attend her college no matter what. I was receiving athletic scholarhships to many schools but not hers. Despite the advice from EVERYONE I knew, i declined free school to go with her. She then fucked a bunch of guys then broke up with me in the first semester. After that, she blew/fucked mostly everyone i knew. She then got pregnant by a random fellow.. That all doesn't bother me as much as my monthly school loans.
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