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Brie

October 03, 2024 @ (Colorado)

My worst breakup was last year. I was in a relationship with this guy and we’d been dating for about 6 months. Right around my birthday he asked if he could get my “best friends” number and I said no because whenever she got a guys number she texted them nonstop and I wasn’t okay with that. I said he could have girls numbers but not hers. He ended up getting her number anyway and then lied to me about it. Even when I figured out what happened I didn’t break up with him because I was too obsessed with him and loved him too much. He started making fun of me to my “best friend” who was more involved in the situation then he was begging me to break up with him so she could have him for herself. I caught him telling her he liked her and when me and him broke up they could date. I dumped him but after he cried and told me he didn’t mean it, we were back together within the hour. He ended up breaking up with me a month later over text because “I was too clingy” and “he didn’t feel the connection anymore” turns out he was sending heart emojis to another girl from NC as well as texting my “best friend” at this time.

Fatih Dikmen

August 16, 2024 @ (Türkiye)

Tags: Metallica, Break Up, Musician, First Love, Cheated

-Metallica: Nothing Else Matters-

I said to her; "This will be our song…"
I have never opened up to anyone else this much. I told her everything. Moreover, we had only been seeing each other for 7 months with a long distance. There were kilometers and countries between us. I promised her, despite everything, and she promised that she would do this for our love, despite everything. Nothing else mattered. I was blindly in love with her and trusted her for 7 months. Her lies seemed like a fairy tale to me and I fell for her like a child. I would never have believed that love would draw me in so quickly and change my life this much. I had never been in love before her. My only purpose in life was to work, support my family, do games, music and research. But when I met her, it was as if I had never been me before her. I was a brand new person with her. I, who used to get angry at the slightest thing, overcame everything and became a good person thanks to her. The words she told me, said and gave me were all lies, but she brought me back to life. I believed her and thanks to her, I discovered that I had a heart.

We have overcome everything, overcome everything and finally I had the chance to meet her. Last week I traveled for miles, crossed mountains, seas, continents and countries and reached her. When I first saw her at the airport, when I first hugged her, I felt my heart beat for the first time. I could only spend 5 days with her, I was happier than I had ever experienced in my life. When I fell asleep in her arms, I was no longer afraid of the anything. I felt peace with her scent.

But I will leave the sentimentality aside now! She left apartment one evening and came back 40 minutes later. There was no regret, fear or sadness in her eyes. She told me directly that there had been another man in her life for 6 years... She told me; "We have been living separately for the last 1 year, but I was talking to you because I felt good and I never expected you to come here, so i was need your support."

I had never felt alive before her in my life, now I felt dead more than ever because of her.
I was helpless, I was devastated there, crying pitifully, she was watching me and there was not a drop of tear in her eyes. She had only used me for a moment. She used my pure love, my feelings and emotions for herself.

But instead of being alone and foolishly harming myself or her, I called my friend for support, told this to people I didn't know and seek for support. And thank you everyone helped. And now I have become a little more courageous and decided to overcome my pride and write these.

She is over for me now. I'm going to forget her name, her smell, her smile, her voice, everything about her. I forgave her betrayal to me, I will not hold a grudge against her anymore. I will only keep the happiness I had with her in a corner of my heart, but it will be full of pain and betrayal. And I will continue to be braver and stronger for my future life, my dreams.

Thank you for everything people! I express my endless gratitude to all these people who helped me, to musicians and music groups who gave me life with music.

Never be afraid to love and live life... Remember, "Nothing else matters."

JUANITA RODRIGUEZ

May 30, 2024 @ (United States)

Tags: Bad break up

On April 7th 2021 was the day I started dating my ex boyfriend that broke up with me 2 years later it was the happiest day of my life when we started dating because I have had feelings for him since 2012 and like he's a City transit bus driver so when i would go on the bus sometimes he would be driving the city bus and one day the bus that he was driving was totally empty and I was the only one in the bus and he went outside for a break and I would just look at him because I didn't have the strength to go talk to him and then one day I gave him a paper and told him to text me and that I liked him so he didn't text me when he seen me in the bus he told me in person that he liked me too and so on April 7th 2021 he went to my house and talked to my mom and asked my mom for permission to date me and that day I really thought he was the men of my dreams he was so sweet with me he would pick me up from work and take me home and spend time with me at my house and then I would go to work on the city bus when he couldn't take me in his car just because he wanted to see me i would spend more time with him then with my family and at work i would spoil him buying him things i celebrated his birthday and him presents and then on Thanksgiving Day 2021 he took me to meet his family and his dad and they are awesome people and very sweet they loved me that's why they don't understand why he broke up with me but in December 2021 for Christmas he took me to spend time with him and his family he was still that sweet loving guy with me I had a great time his family loved spending time with me except the thing was that he was jealous of his dad and brother and I would respect my ex boyfriend I was truthful with him the real thing was when I was supposed to go back to spend time with him and his family again In new years eve because his other brother from California was going to visit to his house and he wanted his brother and his brothers wife to meet me so i was excited so in December 27 2021 when he was visiting me i showed him the dress I was going to put for new years eve so when they would celebrate in family and he got so mad he told me that he didn't want me to put that dress on because I was going to be having people look at me so he stopped talking to me for a couple of days I spent the worst new years day crying it felt like my life was going to end because he wasn't talking to me he started talking to me in January 5 2022 and i felt him kind of weird like he was treating me like a friend but I didn't want to see the truth that I didn't have his love anymore I truly thought I was going to be able to fix the relationship I did everything in my part he had my love still and he kept pulling away from me that was heart breaking and he still celebrated my birthday and i celebrated his but at the end he would come see me one day a week until the surprise was in July 29 2022 at 4:30pm that he called me in the phone and started the conversation joking because I answered my phone very serious my hands were shaking and my heart beating fast like i knew he wasn't going to tell good news and it was to break up with me so i kinda of got out of control started crying and the worst thing i did was that I asked him if he had another girlfriend but his brother told me he does is his ex girlfriend she threatened him to go back with her and chose her over me that i treated him nice and she beat him up
But until this day I still love him even though I haven't seen him since the break up I backed out from his life thinking I would forget him but I still love Michael glau with all my heart ??

Colson Anderson

February 28, 2024 @ (Bexhill )

Tags: Losing my love of life

I meat my partner 7 years ago as her builder after two months we became partners it took me 10 months to rebuild the house for witch I loved doing I only saw her weekends. We had a lovely house.then she moved in after a week or so we were watching tv. And then she started to rock in the chair I did not say everything I just put my hand on her back and she stopped. Then as time went on she would do mor strange things she was constantly on her phone playing games it was sometimes hard to have a conversation when it come to the bedroom it became a no go when it come to love making I only had to touch her and she would complain so I said if this is going to happen then we should stop and we did for the rest of our time together. I did not mind as sex is over important to me .I still loved he very much.we then sold the property and moved in to a new house witch I also turned in to a nice house. As time went on she done more strange things so I took on my self to look it up on the website.all the things she would do and the way she would treat me and the way she talks to me was heading towards being on the spectrum I would try and talk about it and she did not want to no and it got worse .and the last year the jungle was on tv Friday night ant and deck as from tomorrow we will be voting off so I sad who do you think will go first and she I don’t know you are watching it not me ion a bad tone of voice I had seven years of this and I sad something I should not of said I was so up set with my self for saying what I sad. It upset her so much that she wanted me out of the house.that was in October it’s turned out she is allistic so I was right I tried to talk about it but she wouldn’t she never wants to see me again. When an allistic person gets something in their head that’s it. I loved her and still do so much what I said was wrong but I had this for seven years and I would go back tomorrow if I could .we all need to talk if we don’t how can we work it all out. I’m 69 and now I have lost the one I loved so much. And I don’t want to go on anymore being alone is not good for the soul.

Maya

June 16, 2022 @ (Netherlands)

Tags: Breakup

When I was 16 I was curious about having a relationship with a boy. Any if possible, although I had some in mind for a while.

He was the friend of my brother, but also a friend in a group at school I was part of. He was nice, treated me like I was normal. I had very low self esteem. No other boy treated me like him.
I chatted a lot with him on MSN. At one point he broke up with his girlfriend and I was kind of eager to match him with someone. I started to like him and wishing I was his girlfriend. He made me feel tingly.
At one point I convinced him to kiss me. And he was very good at it.
We were not a couple at that point. He kept me on a distance, not sure what to do. Mostly because of my brother. The summer was hot and we were getting more involved. We shared many kisses and it was amazing. But still he would not want to be my boyfriend.
I was getting down, but I waited for him.
It was September when he finaly dared to make it official. My brother was kind of let down, but wanted us to be happy so he went along with it.

My relationship was in a nutshell a life changing experience, but not good for me. We had lots of sex, what kept us addicted to eachother. But he was not my match. He wanted to go out a lot, see sports and friends, while I wanted to stay at home, watch movies and such. And there was his toxic mother. In the beginning she was enthusiastic, but later on she didn't saw me as a good daughter in law. She was convinced I was not good for her son. In the end, she was right, but the way she treated me was not right. I felt worse about myself than ever before. But I loved him, so I holded on. Even when we were on a break for a month, I still went back to him. The last year of our relationship was the most miserable one. He made me feel like I was not good enough for him, because I was not myself. He was also right. I wasn't. I left all my hobbies behind and did things I didn't like. Even though he ment I was not his ideal girlfriend, I know now I couldn't match his expectations.
In the end he went out with a girl to a cinema. And that was his trigger to end it.
I was heartbroken and begged him to come back.
But he said he would not.
We met one last time and after that I never spoke to him again.

Now I can say I am grateful he ended it, but healing from this relationship took a long time for me. At first I thought about him daily, at almost every moment, and slowly that became less and less.

I met my husband 3 years later. Right after my lowest point ever. He is my match. Not sure soulmate, but I can't think of anyone more right for me. He is kind, caring, make me laugh and is my best friend. I can share anything with him. But most important: stay myself. I spent time on my hobbies and interests and he not only admires it, but stimulates me. I love him so much and I am grateful to have this other life.

From time to time I sometimes think about my ex. Wondering what my life would have looked like if we didn't broke up. Or what kind of children we would have had. I have a son now, so that is on my mind a lot. Doesn't mean I want to be his, but I just wonder. It doesn't hurt me anymore and I never want to go back.

Elizabeth

May 24, 2022 @ (Phoenix, Arizona)

Tags: Bad breakup

We got together in 2020, it was the beginning of the second quarter of my 8th grade year, I was pretty much infatuated with him to say the least. He had a girlfriend when we first met, (he was a new student at my school.) but I wasn't going to let that get in my way. (I was a shitty person back then, I know.) They eventually broke up and he and I started to talk on the down-low because all of his new friends, (who all used to be friends with me.) didn't like me, for reasons I still don't know. We got together mid November, and I was so so happy, little did I know getting with him would be a horrible mistake. It had almost been a month of being together when suddenly during school he had just broken up with me, no explanation, no nothing. I had later found out that one of his friends got an old video of me kissing another boy and said I cheated on him with that boy days after out relationship started, (I obviously didn't cheat.) I explained to him that they were lying and we got back together, that was only the beginning. Throughout the rest of our 8th grade year we were basically on and off, we got into several fights because he and his friends did really mean messed up things to me. I almost got into a fight with one of his friends because they were flirting and I texted her while I wasn't at school, he made fun of me to them while we were together, he let them call me names right in front of him,he humiliated me in front of everyone several times, and that wasn't even the half of it. We finally had a steady going relationship during the summer, (because we weren't around any of his friends.) but when we started our freshman year everything would change. The first couple months weren't bad, he started to realize how his friends made me feel, and he made more time for me, but never learned how to stick up for me. We had reached a whole year, everyone thought we were the power couple, believe me, I thought so too. We broke up in December, The night of our winter formal, I was devastated, but I couldn't handle what he was putting me through anymore. He became suicidal, which ended up making me depressed and suicidal. Everyone turned against me for breaking up with him, they got my story all twisted, and before I knew it, I was alone, heartbroken, confused and I wanted to kill myself. I was harassed daily, he ended up making fun of me again, created all these stories and I was completely miserable. It had been 4 months of not being together and we tried to start working things out and were going to try and become a couple again, he had other girls in his life, he lied but I knew he did, and for a little time I did too. Me and my ex would fight daily, and when I told him I didn't want to try with him anymore he went and told my parents all these secrets about me and I had gotten taken out of school for it, it may seem like a relief but things were starting to get better, it was the end of the year and I was slowly recovering from what had happened. While at home he would email me because I didn't have a phone, I didn't want anything to do with him but he kept messaging me, on Saturday, ( 3 days ago) he started becoming mean and aggressive, I had a break down and I was back at square one. I'm not over him, I don't think I ever will get over him, I'm not 15 I was 13 when I met him, I know I'm young but he really was my first love, and my true first heartbreak. I just want to be okay again, I still feel pretty miserable, but this story definitely needed to be shared.

Elizabeth

May 24, 2022 @ (Phoenix, Arizona)

Tags: Bad breakup

Detty

December 09, 2021 @ (West virginia)

Tags: Bad breakup, sad

Okay so I just broke up with my boyfriend of 5 months 2 days ago. We are both 15. It all started at church camp. My dad is a pastor and he goes to my dadâ€™s friends church who is also a pastor obviously. So we will call my ex Gabe, how it all started was the first night of church camp Gabeâ€™s pastor's son (Elijah) introduced us. I didnâ€™t even give Gabe a second glance. Then that night we just got out of church and it was dark and late and my feet were hurting so bad, so I took off my heels. I was walking out the door and I hadnâ€™t even noticed that he was in front of me. He held the door open for me but I didnâ€™t say thank you, and he said â€œYouâ€™re welcomeâ€ and it went from there. He walked me to my dorm room and he said goodnight. I was head over heels for him now. The next day he was with me all day long. Turns out that he has had a crush on me for 2 years!! Now I just found out who this dude is but that was the main thing that got me was the fact that he had his eye on ME out of all the pretty girls at these things. So two days later he asked me out and I obviously said yes. So church camp was over but we still saw each other. He lived 2 hours away and the first time we met up was at Pittsburgh Zoo because that was like the halfway point for both of us. So everyone knew we are dating at this point. Now we would facetime for like 2 hours every night and we would talk about marriage and what age we would get married, you know like things every young couple talks about. Well everything was going good until last month. He tells me EVERYTHING and a lot of those things he shouldn't have told me. But he told me that his youth pastor said that he needed to let go of something . And I was terrified that it was me. But Gabe told me it wasn't and that it was the fact that he looked at pictures. And I was super upset because I felt that I wasn't good enough for him that is why he looked at pictures cause if I was good enough and pretty enough then he wouldn't need those pictures. I didn't break up with him though. So after that things just weren't right I didn't feel the same about him anymore and I couldn't trust him. I still tried to make it work because he loved me so much. But then I found out that he was telling my ex about my body and some of the things he's seen and things we've said and that drew the line for me because I didn't like how he was trying to make my ex boyfriend jealous. Gabe was too clingy from the start and I was too nice to slow it down. Now I broke up with him 2 days ago and I am really missing him and missing talking to him. I know he is hurting like crazy and that makes me just want to check up on him but I know it will make matters worse if I do.

Unknown

December 01, 2021 @ (Massachusetts)

Tags: Twisted

So this all started from meeting this great guy in a game. I know meeting people usually isn't a great idea especially dating them but that didn't really bother me anymore. I met him in the game and we started talking that day. He told me about himself and I decided to as well. Then a red flag came up. He said he liked this girl...yet asked me out the day we met just to "try it out" and see how far that goes. So of course I accept his proposal. This had to have been the biggest mistake of my life. We started calling later on every week and it would be so awkward, the silence and everything. School was around the corner which was online since the whole pandemic happened. I met this girl and we would start communicating in the meets. I asked if she had discord...and she said yes! So i decided to add her. That day when I added her on discord and on game, we started talking more often. She decided to invite to this group chat in discord which had her best friend, crush, and me. I asked them all if its okay that I add my boyfriend. His name was Lume. I added him and that point on everyone liked him and would talk to him 24/7. He started slowly ignoring me and playing with them more often. Mind you I was very busy at that time and had no time to play. I got really upset and jealous because he would be bffs with the girl that he cheated on me with. We aren't at that point yet so, this day I decided to see what he was playing because he was playing with ash (the girl I met in the meetings). Then I noticed he was playing with everyone. Ashs crush, best friend, and Lume. Mind you I hated her crush. Her crush is the girl the Lume cheated on me with. Her name was Izzy. Izzy and I fought in the group at first due to her flirting with Lume. Yet Lume took her side. Another red flag huh? So I got so pissed I ignored him. We started fighting ect.....then depression hit. Lets get to the point, Ash and Izzy dated then broke up which I found strange. Lume later on in the weeks broke up with me....saying I was manipulated. This was a day that I was in call with him and Izzy!!! She knew the whole plan. He decided to block me so I did it back. I still talked to ash since she talked to Lume and Izzy. I was perfectly fine after the break up, I got over it little by little..then something happened. They started dating. Izzy decided to show pics of Lume kissing her in game or whatever and confessing love to her. I broke down. Of course she liked him too and mind you this was when Lume was dating me and Izzy was dating Ash. They are both fucking cheaters. I tried to ask them and yes we did argue over text and I was going all out, but I didn't give a shit. Lume broke up with her due to cheating on her. Then I started talking with Izzy again for a while and we got along yet it ended. Ash dated her best friend who was transgender to a girl and was straight on lesbian. They broke up too. She apparently didn't give a shit about us since she only wanted attention. She talks to Lume now and I'm pretty sure everyone else is too. I hope Karma gets him. He started dating more girls and they would break up. Hes a cheating bastard and you ladies should never date online especially when you notice red flags. Think twice, now I'm in a happy relationship with someone irl and I'm done with people online.

Carly

October 29, 2021 @ (Southeast Asia)

Tags: Breakup

I was never in a relationship before. It was never in my mind to have a relationship yet. But he came into my life. At first, I ignored him cause I was not comfortable to start a relationship yet but he was persistent and he was patient with me. Until one day, I fell for him completely. We started dating. However, it was just a secret to my parents as they are very strict and wants me to focus on my career first. I thought everything was going well with our relationship then the pandemic came. We were not able to see each other for almost a year, and our relationship started to fall apart. I admit it was my fault. I only seldom message him that time. We got into arguments. Then something happened change our life completely. He got someone pregnant. When we had a fight, he went out with his friends for a drink. He was very upset that time. And he wanted to meet me so badly but i could not. He drank so much that he was so wasted and then he did the thing that ruined our relationship. He slept with someone. After a month, he confessed to me since the girl he slept with claimed she is pregnant. He broke up with me through text. I was so heartbroken when he told me. I was not expecting him to sleep with someone else. I cried so much. I cried everyday still not believing it. Even until now, I still cry. It hurts so much.