Jeanice

May 13, 2011 @ (San Diego)

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This is the second day of a breakup cleanse that I am doing. Yesterday I did not feel as sad as I am feeling today. I feel silly because this guy and I had only gone out for three months and it seems silly to feel so sad. I am 43 and Honestly this is the First time I fell in love. I just felt deeply connected with him and the moment we sat and talked I knew I loved him. It was the strangest feeling I had ever had. It was something deep down within. Also the more I was with him the more I felt as if I was falling in love. Since it was the first time maybe it wasn't supposed to work out I don't know. I know that from our first date he did as I said in my previous post(yesterday) he spoke a lot about his ex. OMINOUS Warning I failed to heed FOR SURE. I know for the future I will run so fast if I see the guy is unavailable. Yet I see with all of the intimacy problems I had had, hence being 43 and NEVER having been in love, there were DEFINITE issues. I see that in many ways he was safe for me to fall in love with. He was amazing with me, and I really do feel that he did care deeply for me. I also got to find out that the feeling of falling in love happened within ME !!! Which is so great because I know it is not all HIM so if he leaves the scene I can still have that LOVE feeling within me. YIPPPPPEEEEEEE for that. I also know that because I love him as much as I feel I do he can be a great friend. I must admit I am still having hopes that it can work out. I will let him go as the saying goes (I am paraphrasing) If you love something set it free if it comes back to you it was yours if it doesn't it never was AAAAHHHHHHH I have tried in the past to hold so tightly to things and it always has caused so much pain. I just want to fall in love and get married, to have a lifelong partner. SO there I am !!!!


       


 

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jealous women

September 03, 2011


It is so sad to be in a relationship wherein you wished to have happily ever after with but ends up broken and gone. I have been in the same relationship where I was totally happy but then I found out my long year partner was cheating on me. It was really very painful for me. I was so jealous. I did everything to gain revenge but then I realized everything I was doing was non-sense. Now, I have recovered and decided to remain single for now and enjoy the life that I have.


     


lbtorr

June 05, 2011


This story is so much like my own and I feel your pain. We broke up last Thursday. It made me feel better where you said it was good that you know you can feel that now cause that is something no one can take away. Like my sister said, there are lots of other fun guys in Texas, so life goes on. But I am right there with you sister.


     


Osama Bin Laden

May 13, 2011


You know, it's sad that you've never been in love at 43 until now. Either you were a prudish twat who put your career first, or you have a melting face. Guess you'll never have kids now...or probably never marry for that matter. By the way, this is a breakup story blog- NOT your personal journal of nonsense that is boring as hell! Get a flippin notebook.