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Sam

February 05, 2016 @ (Malaysia)

Lets just take this as day 1, a healing stage, a blessing in disguise, making me stronger in time to come.
And so I just broke up with the love of my life, and this was happening again. I lost once, and now I lost another. What more could I sincerely ask for, when I had everything in the world to begin with. She's the first person that comes to my mind when I wake up, she's the girl I would be more than willing to buy gifts for. She meant the world to me and I had no qualms about anything. I was happy. I was really happy with my life and I didn't dare to ask for more. I didn't want to. There wasn't a need to. I only knew that I was in love. Deeply in love.
I am 19, and I know that there are cases in different pockets of the world that have been through this ordeal, probably much worse than mine. After all it's been 15 months only, nowhere close to marriages that have lasted for years (what a bitter moment for people like us). While I know we kind of ended on a good note and we could still be friends in the coming years, how am I supposed to treat her as a good friend, when I always saw her as my coming wife?
My mind's in a mess now, and Chinese New Year is around the corner. I really hope I recover soon enough to hide it from everyone else. I don't want my loved ones to be upset for me, I need to stay strong. I will be strong.

And all I need is strength in me.
I need you to be with me, god.

Amber

January 31, 2016 @ (Indiana)

Tags: bad breakup

My now ex boyfriend of eight months has depression and is going through a lot with school/work and is stressed a lot. He doesn't seem to have good coping skills (he admits it) and things build up and he runs away. We'd been fighting a lot off and on (not terrible fights, but they were every couple days). Yesterday he went over to a friend's house and was supposed to come home around 1 or 2 am. He texted me saying that he'd had too many beers and was just going to crash there and would be home around noon. We were supposed to go out today and have a nice dinner and have fun (he was still saying he wanted to go right before he went to bed at his friend's). Well he gets home at noon, comes in and puts my dog in the kennel and tells me that he brought the guys over to meet me (he'd tried to introduce me before but the timing wasn't right). So they come in and I walk out and immediately something seems weird. None of them are looking at me and I say, "Hi!" but no one answers and I notice boxes. My boyfriend then says, "These are my best friends... I've known these guys for years and they're my rock." He paused and then said, "And the reason we have all of these boxes here is because you're out of here.. we're done. This is done." I was completely shocked and couldn't understand what was happening. I asked him to talk in private and at first he resisted, but then agreed. We went into the bedroom and he literally set a timer of 5 minutes. We talked and he says he has too much going on, we're too different and that in general, he's not happy with us and isn't in the place to be in a relationship right now. He claims it's not me but "us".
He says he's happy sometimes but not as much as he should be and that he brought his friends because he knows he'd not stay strong about breaking up otherwise. Here's the part where it starts getting weird: he filmed us with his friend's phone when we were talking in private to show that things had ended "amicably".

Feroza

January 31, 2016 @ (england)

Tags: good break up

I know everyone is hear to share their breakup story. I have a break up story but I am not hurt. This time I am relieved, I feel happy, I feel secure. I feel like many more doors have opened when I closed one door. My Ex. I still dont know if he love me but he had been playing sick games with me for the past couple of years. Finally I decided I was sick and tired of him and I told him I was leaving. Honesly If you are not getting the love and care and repect that you deserve in a relationsip then srew eveything .Who cares about how rick he is , how good looking he is, how secure your future is going to be .What matters is are you really happy..Ask your self? BE happy and makre sure you are getting the above three things.Life is too short to spend with a jerk who dosent know what he has.

Liam

January 29, 2016 @ (London)

Tags: Bad Breakup, Funny Breakup

So, on Friday evening two weeks ago my partner of six years dumps me out the blue on my door step, half an hour after texting me that she would picking up a pizza for us on her way home. So yeah, that happened.

Alina

January 27, 2016 @ (Italy)

Tags: Bad break up, trauma, hope, family, child

This goes out to all the people grieving over their break-up,

I wrote on here about a month ago, swearing that my relationship with my boyfriend was finally over. Crying over the fact that i was ready to get married to him, have his child and start a future. Swearing that no one could ever make the feel the way he had.

Well, long story short, i moved into his house, i had a beautiful daughter and am currently fighting for custody in order to return home. Suddenly the person I loved had become someone i dont know at all. This house has become a prison cell. And i live in constant fear that he is going to take away my most precious gift of all, my daughter. But time will pass, happiness nor sorrow lasts forever. I will win both legal and physical custody of my daughter and will finally live an independent life.

Take my story to reflect carefully on your own. Be careful what you wish for because one mans sorrow is another persons salvation.

Aziellie

January 17, 2016 @ (Manila)

Tags: Breakup

Me and my ex boyfriend were living together for almost 2 years when we broke up. The unforgetable date was December 29, 2015. He said he wanted to prioritize his family, friends and his self. He said he's tired with everything. I wasn't expecting that to happened. We were so happy last Christmas that's why I was really shocked. My heart was in bad shape after that. I tried to accept it and tried to think all of the bad things we had in the relationship but in the end everything went down. I couldn't focus at work, he said he won't go back to the apartment if i'm still there. Everything seems to be falling apart. He went home December 31 to get some clothes and I did take that chance to begged....begged...begged... but all he said was "no". I don't know what to do, I planned everything with him on it. I don't understand why it was so easy for him to let me go. For him to dumped me.. I gave my best and all in that relationship. I prioritized him in everything.. I tried to be okay for about 2 weeks when he started texting and I did reply because I missed him. We talked after 2 weeks and he said he wanted to give our relationship a chance but that chance did not last for a day. He texted me that night and all he said was "sorry". I was so hurt and hopeless again. I asked him to give me a week but he said "no" again. He agreed to have a dinner the next day where I ended begging for his love. I told him that I'm not expecting anything for him and asked him to give me 1 week to stay but he said "no". He said he wanted to go home and again I begged for him to accept me even just for a night and finally I heard the word "yes". That whole night was so painful, I just cried the whole night because he made me feel that I'm not there. Pain was higher that the love that I have. I prayed for more strength, I prayed that no one will also feel the pain that I have..

Rhonda

January 08, 2016 @ (Canada)

Tags: @Idont tag #isthisahashtag

I didn't see the signs. We were together for over two years. The first year and a half was crazy, wonderful, love. Then he slowly began distancing him self. More and more. He never communicated what was on his mind, so I thought everything was OK. Little did I know he was slowly starting to resent me. I was in denial about the distance. I loved him so much and kept thinking things would get better, it was just a rough patch. Through out the relationship I always worked away on and off. I went working away again and he broke up with me after I had been away for three months. later that year I was supposed to move to another town not so far away to attend school for a year. Then come back and live in the town we live in. Because he needed so much space, I didnt think he would mind if I ran off to school for a year to take a course. I hoped maybe distance would some how save us. (Absence makes the heart grow fonder?) Man was I wrong. He had time to stew over things I had no idea he was upset. When I got back from work he told me all these things he had been stewing over, he was mad about this and that, and a few minor events from a year a ago? and that apparently I am a horrible person. I won't give full details but the things he said really hurt. He was not the man I knew. He changed and decided that he disliked me. With in the matter of two months he went from saying 'I support you in anything you do baby' to you are so irresponsible i don't understand why you have to go to school, you don;t need school ect. You have done all these things that pissed me off. I don't want you around.
Then fast forward to five months, he calls me out of the blue before Christmas time. He said he's sad too. It's good to hear my voice. WTF. He was all nice again. I dont understand. I'm still crushed. I still have some of my belongings at his house. I had packed up my apartment (no we didnt live together) with the intention of going to school. I was storing my things at his house before he broke up with me. I didn't end up going to school this year because I was crushed. He left me just before school started. I'm not blaming him, I also had a lot of stressful events happen in my life during the same time. My ex leaving me was the icing on the cake. I just dont understand I thought I was a really nice girlfriend. I tried my best.

Emily

December 26, 2015 @ (Europe)

Tags: First love, Bad breakup

We have been together for a half a year. We are really young,only in 9th grade. You might think we didn't even love each other, but we really did. But just recently he told me he doesn't love me like he used to. It completely broke my heart, I meen it happened on the Christmas month and it made worse. Gosh we have had so many things great memories, we had such a bright future. But my friends say he's no good,cause I have been crying every night for more than a month, I haven't been eating and I am already really skinny, you know this is what love does, he's a great guy, and I completely did not expect that, and I fell in love with all his flaws and I even liked to fight with him, you know it felt like we were a family. The first love is so strong, I'll never forget him, I meen so many firsts, first kiss, first boyfriend, even tho he was more than that to me, he was like my brother, like my best friend.. I can't imagine my self with anyone else, actually I can't imagine my life without him, because he became such a big part of my day to day life. Can this really be over? I meen he was the first to kiss me, he even asked he was like "can I?", and oh god he told me that he loves me, when we didn't see each other for a long time for the first time, he came to my huose with a bunch of roses, he was so nervous, but managed to say that he fell in love with me. And the last time we texted I asked for him to remove the status from facebook, and the photos from Instagram if it's all over, and he said no, and I told him that I'm really heartbroken, and that I don't see myself with anyone else, he said that he doesn't either, but he hasn't texted me since, he just sits on Facebook liking other girls pictures. Please help, I don't know what to do and please tell your opinion if it's over.

Rhiannon

December 05, 2015 @ (USA)

Tags: bad break up

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Saleena

November 18, 2015 @ (Australia )

Tags: broken heart

OK well a few weeks ago a guy broke my heart into millions of pieces and i couldn't do anything about ..... could i ??? honestly i still have hope that we will get back together but in my mind he has made it pretty clear he doesn't like me anymore cause he has a crush on someone else and has successfully started dating her ...But people have different ways of moving on and im just doing it slowly he has his reasons for breaking up with me that i didn't see and still dont know why . This would have been the 2nd time we went out the first time was as good but the 2nd time was better we improved on the things we needed to be improved on and i am still strongly in love with him and its going to take me a while to get over but honestly YES i am ONLY 13 but age is just a number all my friends have told me i will get over it just like he has but i honestly cant he is the only person i want my heart to be broken by. the reason im writing this isn't to show people, i just want to get this out of my head and see if it it sounds as stupid as people think. i don't know why but he has broken my heart twice and every time i haven't been able to hate him or dis like him or love him less than i do i know his feelings are gone and he doesn't like/love me anymore but no matter how hard i try and trust me i have tried these feelings wont disappear but why aren't i surprised this one absolutely amazing guy has taken my heart and cased a spell on me i don't no how to deal with these things im only 13 and i have fallen deeply in love. All my friends think he is an awful person for breaking up with me the way he did which was through my friend on a phone call and obviously i was in tears but it was kind he said he didn't want to do it in person cause he didn't want to see me cry.... which i did in fact cry quite ALOT. i have honestly never cried over a guy besides him both times i have cried when he broken up with me and every single time i always fall for him again why... THIS PAIN that i get every time im around him kills me i struggle some days seeing him smiling and laughing with other girls it makes me notice that he has moved on and he actually deserves a better girl than me i made his life stressful that's all i could give to him not love and comfort but stress. i still love him like seriously who couldn't fall in love with a guy like him he is all i think about every single second minute and hour of the day. know im looking back and the time we shared together, the best days of my high school year was the days i spent with him. If i did show any one this i know they will say im just 13 i will find someone again and all of that, that i have heard PLENTY of times. One of the reasons why i have fallen in love with him is cause when he is with me he is a completely different person he is loving comforting and over all just AMAZING and i feel like a different person, every time we were on the phone would be the most memorable moments, we would talk about the future and what it would be like and all of those amazing things but know that has all gone to waste In one letter he wrote me on our 1 month in the end it said i may hold your hand for a while but you will hold my heart forever and i don't know if that was true but at the time i did believe it and he does and will hold my heart forever. Everything i said to him was true, he may not believe it but its true. I AM TRULY SORRY FOR SCREWING THINGS UP WITH HIM and i hate myself everyday for it that it was my fault he is out of my life likely to be FOREVER and i cant control that. i have made a lot of mistakes in my life but loosing him would be the one that i regret and wish i could change the way things turned out for us but I cant control his feelings and at the moment i cant control my own feelings either at the moment all i do know is that i have fallen deeply in love with this absolutely amazing guy ......
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