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Emma

July 01, 2010 @ (arizona)

My boyfriend and I had been together 9 months. We'd known each other and been really in love for almost 2 years. I gave him absolutely all of me. We really were great together and always had fun and showed each other how much we were in love. He always told me how he wanted to marry me and how much he loved me. Everything was going great until one week he had phone issues. He never tried to contact me in any way. When he did get his phone back, he still didn't at least text me and say he'd call me later or anything. So after going from speaking everyday or just getting an "i love you" text from him, which was always enough for me and made me feel so amazing, he went to zero communication. Who wouldn't "freak out"? I tried contacting him and got nothing. Anyway, I went to see what was going on and he told me he wanted a break and started naming off all these silly previous fights that he had already apologized for and I had forgiven and moved on. He said how I ask too much of him, which he lives 2 hours away, and he had always been able to find time to call me or just text me each day, and if a day or two went by, I was okay with that because I do know how busy he really is. Anyway, after saying all that I had finally agreed to a break. I asked if he wanted to break up and he said no, just a break for a few weeks because he didn't have time for this.
A month has gone by and I had tried to contact him out of desperation for answers the first two weeks. I have not tried to contact him for the past 2 weeks and I will not. I sent him a pour my heart out, this is what really happened with all the silly fights, and do you really love me if you're throwing away what we had...and still heard no word.
It's the most painful thing in the world to go from "i love you I want to marry you baby" to not acknowledging my existence. We are both 21, so yes I know we're young, but he had been so genuine and he doesn't sugar coat anything, so I know if he didn't love me, he would have just said so...
I've been suffering from panic attacks my whole life, but had not had an issue with them again until all of this happened. It feels as if my world crashed down. I live alone, I'm in a new state where all I have is a job so this makes things even more difficult. I do have hobbies, but cannot pursue riding horses at this time because I live in an apartment and can't afford to board a horse in town.
I wake up every morning thinking about every good and horrible thing we've gone through. After what he's done to me, I hate him, but I love him at the same time. My heart races, my stomach turns, I feel nauseous all day long and cannot eat like I used to.
I tried not making him my whole life, but I guess I felt what we had was so real, I never had to worry about him not being there. This all makes me sound pathetic, I know it does and I hate feeling this weak.
How can you love someone so much one day, and want nothing to do with them the next? And no, nothing changed. He changed. I know there isn't anotherr girl because his roommate wants to date me and I'm sure to get me to date him, he would tell me if there was another girl.
So now what? How can I get over this? I've bought books about breakups that have helped me on the whole outlook of this about how if we were so perfect, this wouldn't have happened.
But still...
anyone have any words of advice or encouragement? Anything would help. Sorry this was so long.

Kerri

June 10, 2010 @ (Florida)

Tags: Vacation

I booked our trip to Mexico last week. We have been together for 4 years. 2 days ago he tells me he met someone else and is leaving. He packs his shit and on his way out the door throws the trip information on the desk and then proceeds to tell me that I need to refund his money in full by the end of the month. Anyone interested in a vacation?

Alex

May 05, 2010 @ (Bucharest)

Tags: chase, funny

We had a two and a half year relationship..Lot of fighting going on...
A couple of days b4 Valentine's day he tells me he is going for a trip to another town in Romania, to some friend of his, but I shouldn't call him there, because he wants to give RESET to our relationship and we would start afresh when he is back.
The day before Valentine's he dumps me on messenger!
His reason, I am tragic, jealous and crazy..And, poor thing, he can't go on anymore.

Couple of weeks later, coincidence!, I see him on the streets with a new girl, holding hands, acting all in love, taking picture and stuff..
I was on the other part of a big boulevard.
Curiosity seizes me, i wanted to confront it, or, truth be told, to see what she was like. So I trY crossing that busy boulevard, cars honking, the whole gamut...
But surprise, surprise, they spot me!!
For a second they stop and laugh pointing a finger at me(well at least that's how I remember it) and THEN the coward starts running dragging the poor girl along.
I run too, they run faster, they hide beyond a barrack, i lose sight.

Lol, that was pretty traumatic at the moment, but at least i can laugh about it now..
whereas for my ex, he did me a world of good for leaving:P

Lexi

March 16, 2010 @ (Tacoma, WA)

Tags: Me, , Jerk

Was dating this guy for a few months.. he kept doing some shady BS and I was tired of putting up with it. So I decided last week to finally end things... We talked about it a couple times actually, but on wednesday it was official. Now begins the text messages...
Me: No. I can't do this anymore. I'm sorry..
Jerk: okay. I had gf whole time. I knew you were a fling
Me: Did you really have a gf the whole time?
Jerk: It's over. No need to talk. bye
Jerk: Deleting your number. Outta sight outta mind
Jerk: u can't hurt me anymore
Jerk: one day you love me, next you can't do it anymore.. first time thats happened
Jerk: you'll never know.. cuz we done. cuz u are unrealistic.. and its spring time.. aka playa season. i only date during the winter
Jerk: You were fun... thanks :)
Me: Likewise (My last message to the jerk) Wed morning
Jerk: What about one last fuck
Jerk: My last comment to u is.. a bitch is always last to get fucked. sorry it didnt work.. I almost gave up my gf for u. so glad I didnt

Ok.. those were all Wednesday morning.. then at 6:30pm he sends this...
Jerk: I miss u. i'm addicted
Then at 10pm
Jerk: Goodnight Lexi
Then the next morning he actually tried calling me. Then more text messages
Jerk: Are we not friends anymore?
Jerk: Wow. I guess I'll never hear from you again. couldn't give up girlfriend. she is hella rich. and Im going on 3 vacations Vegas Hawaii and she gave me money also towards new york. I like u. I'm sorry i couldn't give you 100% of me. u need a sugar daddy and cool dude to fuck on side. fuck a relationship. get this money
On Friday morning he tried calling again.. then more text messages
Jerk: I need to hear your voice
Jerk: can we talk
Jerk: I'm coming over to talk to you (I left for work at this time, I dont think he ever showed up)
Jerk: I can't live without you Lexi. I love you more than anything
Jerk: remember i'm the cereal, you're the milk
Jerk: you weren't a fling. u are my soulmate
Jerk: I haven't been able to eat since we broke up. I am sick... love sick
Jerk: one last talk, I need that
Then that night.. he sends me a picture message with his photo.. saying..
Jerk: miss you
Jerk: These other bitches dont do it for me. I need u

Then I heard nothing all weekend so I thought maybe he was actually going to stop contacting me. But I was wrong. Monday morning...
Jerk: without you i'm lost. talk to me
Jerk: or do i gotta show up at your work just to see you again
Jerk: this sucks. all these other girls wanna kick it, but i dont. I want my LEXI BACK!!!

It's weird how crazy someone can be once you break up.. Or at least that's when you finally realize it. I've been ignoring him since last wednesday morning. If he continues contacting me I'll post an update...

Jean

March 15, 2010 @ (Oregon)

Tags: liar

Okay-we were high school sweethearts.I met him when I was 14 and he was 15. We started dating months later. Our relationship always moved slow. But now that things ended, I realized how he has always slowly tried to pull himself away from me but because he was my first EVERTHING I always put up with alot. Well through many fights and break ups on and off we were together for 6 years.

He broke up with me a month ago. He said I was selfish, immature and spoiled. As much as it does hurt. Why should i give my WHOLE heart to someone who just stomps all over it! LIAR!

Charlie

February 21, 2010 @ (New Zealand)

Tags: sleazy, upsetting

She was my first love. We were lovers and best friends, it was amazing. We had our moments where there were spats and petty arguments, but we always got over them pretty quickly. About 6 months in we hit a rocky patch where we were constantly fighting and holding grudges longer than we were in spending time together so we called everything to a halt and "took a break" but after being apart for a week and a bit got back together. Things, although still great, were never the same. Our relationship lacked the passion and we were fading to bare friendship. By the end of our 7th month I tried to cling to the scraps of our relationship but she was slipping away and i was constantly having to call, txt and arrange when and where i'd see her. It got to the point where i knew she'd lost interest in me completely and i had nothing i could hold on to. After one of our last "arranged" dates i moved in to kiss her hello and she leaned away. I confronted her about her feelings and she turned around and said that she wanted our "infatuation" to slip into a comfy, close friendship. I agreed, i couldn't force her to feel differently about me. We avoided each other for a week when she started txting me again. I asked how she was, if she was seeing anyone and i got a few stinted replies our conversation dwindled and died. She then txted me a few hours later asking how i'd feel if she was to start seeing someone; i tried to stay nonchalant and told her it was her choice and to do what made her happy and, stupidly, asked if i'd know the person. She replied with one of our mutual acquaintance, of which, i felt a bit put out knowing a few trashy, sleazy stories about him but left it up to her. She then pushed the matter, asking how i'd take it if they were officially dating and i repeated my "whatever makes you happy" but then it struck me and i asked her how long they'd been dating. She replied that she'd hooked up with them days after we'd officially broken up. I was heartbroken. She continued to text me, then kept calling but i couldn't bring myself to answer. It's been a two years and i still refuse to fall into any relationships due to the scars shes inflicted. How long did her relationship with the sleaze last? 4 weeks.

Steven

February 17, 2010 @ (Wyoming)

Tags: example1

So, me and my girl were together for about three years and were engaged. She always wanted to eat and then go back to my place ;). She always made me laugh, she was beautiful, and i thought she was my soul mate. We were so in love. But then one night ruined it all. I find out that my girl had sexy parties without me. One of my co-workers invited me to one for his bachelor party. I was not going to do anything. Looking is not bad right? Well, i went to it and i saw my girl there in her sexy work outfit. The outfit was a belt with leather boots, fish netting stockings, and black leather one piece outfit. Anyways.. she did not even notice me until she came over to give me a lap dance i think she was about to do. Her face was priceless when she saw me! I was so pissed at first but now i think it is hilarious. Now i know why she was so good! When she saw me she started crying and saying "I am so sorry!". I grabbed her by the arm and dragged her out to the car. We got into the hugest argument i was ever in. The bitch would not stop crying the whole time and did not even look at me once. That is when we went back to her house and i spent the night ;). I could not let the outfit go to waste! And then i left her in the morning when she was sleeping! Amen brother Amen!!!

Steffi

February 06, 2010 @ (Indonesia)

Tags: dumped

R and I met in college. He was two years younger than me. At first I thought he was a little too immature for my taste, but I decided to give him a try.
We dated for the past six months. He knew I was possessive and jealous, and he SAID he understood. He knew I was insecure. He SAID he understood. He never once complained. He never once told me anything about what he didn't like about me. I've always told him to open up to me, to tell me anything that was bothering him. But everytime I tried to open the lines of communication, he either joked about it or said everything's fine.
I was very happy with him. He truly loved me, and he taught he how to love. I was a little afraid of love, but he took my hand and together we took that leap of faith. I loved him. I loved him with all my heart.
A few weeks ago, things started to go downhill. WAY downhill. We started fighting a lot. And he didn't have the patience that he used to have with me anymore. We had this huge fight, and ever since then things were never the same again. After that fight, everytime I looked at him, I saw the emptiness in his eyes. He started distancing himself from me. When we went on dates, there were more awkward silences. I tried to pretend like nothing happened, but how long can I continue pretending?
Finally, I told him to make a decision. Either make an effort, or call it quits. He decided to take the easy way out. He dumped me. He said he didn't have any feelings for me anymore, and that he wasn't happy with me anymore.
I begged him to take me back. I begged him to give me more time. He refused.
How could anyone who LOVED me as much as he did suddenly lose all feelings for me in a mere matter of weeks? When I told my friends about the breakup, nobody believed it. Everybody said, 'That's impossible! He's so in love with you!'
But I guess his love was ephemeral. If he truly loved me, wouldn't he have tried to save the relationship?
In the beginning, when I was having doubts with the relationship, he always tried to convince me that love will conquer all. I guess that was all BS.

TinkerBell

February 03, 2010 @ (Oregon)

Tags: 1st love

When I was in high school there was this guy that liked me and I could not stand him. He asked me out multiple times and I said no. I then moved away and never saw him again but did think about him. About a year after I graduated I found him on myspace and we met up for coffee and it was love at first site. He had matured (so I thought) and was super cute. We started dating and where engaged. He told me how much he loved me and would never leave me and how beautiful I was. He broke up with me after 5 months ( that seemed like a year ) he didnt even give me much of a reason other then he needed space and a couple areas we just both needed to work on to make this work. Long story short I found out that he had started spreading rumors about me to my friends while I was gone to college. I also found out that the reason he broke up with me was for my best friend who he had been cheating on me with. I got over him a little faster but after dating a 2nd guy )who dated me to make his ex jealous) I miss him alot. I moved home and am going to a new school soon and there are so many memories of us. He was my first everything, kiss, love, he took my verginaty. I miss the fun times we had and the friends I had till he destroyed that for me. I am still trying to get back on my feet but I have a hard time trusting anyone now.

Carl

January 07, 2010 @ (Delhi)

Tags: Family, control, dominating family

I was in love with some girl, when I met a girl who became my friend (very good friends). I broke up with my love just to offer her a chance to be with some one who was better for her than me. She would ignore her but he would wait. I thought of moving out so he could get his place which, he did. My love hated me for leaving but I could live with the thought that atleast she'll be happy all her life without me.

I was coming out of that love and discovered my friend had developed feelings for me. For the first thought I had her by my side in my low time so I accepted her but her sister and I had an ego clash. Her sister always ruled my friend (now my GF) and I opposed it. This took her sister be against me and I certainly could not accept her sister. I took a promise from my GF to not let her sister get involved in our life and in simple words leave her for me. She agreed but kept the contacts with her sister, this reason brought so many fights between us but nothing changed. After marriage till date, many fights and many chances to break up, she still wants to sail in 2 boats.

No breaking contacts at the cost of my happy married life. I realised some times you as a husband is expected to accept all you get but you are unable to....Can't be a doormat and can't keep fighting everyday when the reason is her family. I think of moving out but get blamed. Along the way the fights have made me hear things that haunt me now and I see my feelings for her are not the same anymore.

I regret to have given my LOVE in somebody's hand and sacrificed. 2nd time I was taken for granted. Now I am all broken and just dragging myself with her as we have a child as well.

Can't live with her and can't leave her. Living with her has a cost to pay and leaving her has a cost for my child to pay.

Sometimes life gives you a fruit that looks sweet but its bitter when you bite. I am responsible for my own mistakes and will have to learn to live with the memories of my Fisrt and only love. What is more ironic than this?