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The Unstable Entrepenour

November 21, 2016 @ (United States)

I remember that it hurt. Hearing the words hurt - and at the same time, it felt like something out of a movie, like it wasn't happening. After all, how could it? It had been merely a week since our second anniversary, and as an anniversary gift she had given me a card that said, "I promise to be with you for all the years to come."
I couldn't even begin to process it. "How do you feel," she asks me, trying to decipher my off smile and my wondering eyes. I only smile because I don't know what to say, what to feel. I don't fight it, I merely say all-right, shed a couple tears, and drop her off at her house. It took me a couple days for my emotions to catch up with me - and oh boy, did they come in force. Like a thousand crashing waves, every single negative emotion in the book comes, all at once, all clamoring for my attention in a sea of deprecating voices: "you weren't enough," "she got tired of you," "you aren't good enough for anyone" ; and as I struggle to get them in check, I was still left wondering: why exactly did it happen?
I never got a straight answer to that question; at least, none that I understood. She mentioned that she wanted to try being with a girl (she's bi, but not in practice yet), that I had been insensitive about one fight that we had more than a year ago, that I was too unstable in my life for her to think about settling down with me. "If my ex had asked me to move in with him, I would've done it in an instant" she said. Surprisingly enough, her life wasn't in any way better than mine: a education major working as a cashier at one of the lowest paying grocery shops in the area, with no car telling me, a computer engineering major with a car, and a delivery job earning 2.5x more per hour as her.
While I could see how she was right, since I had been thinking about dropping out of school, and I had changed my major more than three times in the last six months, I just didn't understand why that was an issue now, all of a sudden. The only answer I can come up with is that perhaps the spark, that magical, elusive feeling that binds people together just died over time for her, while mine grew stronger and stronger. While she was thinking about how to break the news to me, I was thinking what would be the best date to travel to Disneyland with her, since she had told me not too long before, that she'd like me to propose to her at the Cinderella Castle.
I write this now, two months later, even thought it feels like a lifetime ago. My speculating and unstableness paid off after all; because I was willing to take risks, I dropped out of school, and started working in Real Estate. In the first month, I rose from Intern to District Manager at a local firm, and when some shady situations came to light regarding the owners, I left the firm, and opened my own. I'm earning four times what I was before, and it'll only grow from here. Even so, I still look back and wonder what could've been. When she ended things, it felt like someone had taken a hammer to the glass sculpture that was my future with her; and even though I'm not crying over it anymore, I have yet to pick up the pieces, and start again.

-E

November 16, 2016 @ (UK)

Tags: bad break up, I still like her

Right,so we dated for slightly over 4 months(short time,I know) but never the less I still extremely loved her,and still do.Our relationship gave no signs of falling apart,at least not any that I could see.We were your typical teenagers in love.Always by each others sides.Holding hand.Constantly texting each other. Every time I spent time with her,I was able to forget all my worries and I finally understood what that cliche about love meant.Everything just seemed so perfect.I loved her and she loved me,but things began going wrong.Because of me.All because of me I lost the one person that really made me feel alive.Made me feel like there was a point to waking up in the morning.Let's call her CC.CC was very easily jealous over my female best friend R.I have a long history with R.R always seemed to support me emotionally and never really gave any inclination that she was romantically attracted to me.Further more,me and R were and still are physically close.Whilst dating CC I would hold hands with R which would clearly upset CC.And me,being the douche i am,never done anything about it.I continued treating CC like second place and never giving her the love she deserved.On a side note,me and R(my female best friend) never done anything except holding hands and hugging,I did most certainly not cheat on CC.Fast forward a couple months,and we would avoid each other and act as if we were almost strangers. Every time we accidentally came in contact with each other we both acted as if we were being branded with a hot rod of iron.This continued for a week until we had an argument over text.Both of us were being passive aggressive but i was obviously the one who started the whole argument.And then we decided to take a break from each other. For a week we still texted.Not much seemed to have changed except our texts seemed so much more wary and cautious.Then on top of that,DD lets call them that ,texted me saying i was being bordeline mentally abusive to CC and that i was manipulative in the relationship.DD was very close to my CC.Anyway lets leave all that out and skip to the juicy bits you all want to hear.2 weeks after our break,she stops texting me entirely.Stops talking to me and avoids me. Doesn't even make eye contact from me.Then on the day we would have had our 5 month anniversary,I see her with hickeys on her neck from DD.CC has stopped caring about me entirely that's for sure...I still think about her.I still love her.I start crying whenever i think back onto memories I have shared with her.How warm her embrace felt.How her hand felt against mine.How I just enjoyed being in her company,just lying down and staring at her in silence. Savouring ever second I got to spend time with her.I have to let go now.I'm finding it hard to.Her.Her.Her.It's a chant inside my head and my heart.I love her and I hate what it does to me.

Mian

November 13, 2016 @ (Malaysia)

Tags: Bad breakup

English is not my first language so I hope you guys can overlook my errors. I honestly don't know where to start hahah. In my case, I was the one who screwed up. I screwed up BIG time. It's a little bit more complicated than that tho.. This girl, Dina is her name, she used to have a very serious ex issues when we were dating.. I guess you could say that i was her rebound.. Her ex did all sorts of horrible things to her as he was abusive asf. But Dina dated with that guy for like 4 years so she found it hard to move on and really get over him.. When we were still together, she'd still text her ex and they would fight over the phone and i'd just stand there doing nothing as i respect her decisions..I kept pushing her to just ignore that guy(in a good way) but Dina still have feelings for that son of a bitch and that she couldnt hurt him.. and she said she can handle it.. so i let 'her way of doing things' proceed only until i realized that she's developing some deep feelings of affection again towards her ex..when i wanted to take actions, she yelled at me.. we never yell at each other before...at that point i knew it was already too late for me.. so i decided to send an offensive text to her ex and i did.. he got mad.. at Dina.. and Dina got mad at me.. which i deemed to be very unfair.. so me and Dina had a huge fight and we broke up by hating each other.. Soon after that i realized i have made a huge mistake.. the biggest mistake of my life.. i have lost the love of my life becase of my own ego and selfishness.. I mean, its not her fault to begin with.. her ex started it.. and Dina is just another weak and innocent girl.. she just wanted to help everyone.. i apologized to her.. MANY TIMES.. send her texts..letters.. but she wont return any of em.. and her bestfriend told me that she hates me so much right now.. the unfairness is real..

Charlie

November 08, 2016 @ (canada)

Tags: Cheated husband while pregnant

I have been with my husband 10 years married for 5, we have 2 kids and I'm pregnant with our third, we where a great couple, in love the envy of everyone, but this year we where a bit distant from each other he owns a business with his family and has always worked 6 days a week at least 70h and I have never said a word, but got a bit bored this year and checked out, when we had the talk we decided to work on things and I got pregnant by accident/surprise right after , we sold our house for a bigger one for me to find out he was cheating on me the entire summer, he says he just got confused with us not being as connected as before and had tried to brake it off when we had our talk but was scared to piss off the other women and that she would tell me. Now I'm 6 month pregnant and not sure what to do . His work schedule has not changed and as much as he says he loves me and wants to work it out I dont find he is putting any effort in at all and all I can think of is that if you had time when you had no time to have affaire then you should have time to work on things, I think he thinks this will just blow over with time and since I'm pregnant its not like I'm going anywhere, what should I do , I would like to work this out but not with someone who seems to have no interest in doing the right thing at the appropriate moment.

Sophia Styles

November 03, 2016 @ (San Antonio)

Tags: Dishonesty, lack of communication, fear of commitment

I met him at a party in December 2015. It was obvious that we were both attracted to each other and we started dating straight away. On our first date he tells me he loves me, that freaked me out and I saw it as a red flag, but decided to dodge the bullet to give him a chance. Being with him was amazing since I loved spending time with him, but we barely ever saw each other. We only saw each other twice a month for 1 hour or 2. I wanted to see him more than that since we only lived 30 mins apart. I told him that, but it never happened.

Last month he broke up with me because his feelings weren't as strong as mine and his feelings were diminishing. He never communicated this to me at the time and instead he repressed this since he wanted to still be with me, so he pretended like everything was ok and was telling me how he loves me and misses me when he wasn't feeling it. That made me feel like the past few months was all a farce and was leading me on. The fact that he wasn't honest with me is what hurts the most.

A few months later he still wants me around since he is inviting me to events, so I am left being really confused.

Quinn

October 29, 2016 @ (Ontario Canada )

Tags: Break up

My girlfriend "Lisa" went to Newfoundland for two weeks to visit family. I never saw or heard from her again. I found out years later that in that two weeks, she met a guy at a bar and decided to stay. I've never got over her, I have no closure.

Patricia

October 25, 2016 @ (1311 willingham drive)

Tags: bad, upsetting

so me and him kinda was dating..rn im in pain im more depressed then before...so freshmen year i started liking him never talked to him till my 10th gr year which is rn im a 10th grader and he is a senior..so he talked to me thats how it started we got to know each other more and more and then we started with kissing each other hugging holding hands taking pictures together matching etc...he would write me these love letters i still got them although wen i reread them im always breaking down into tears...he asked me to homecoming we went we had a whole argument he was being mean and i was acting up bcus i started feeling depressed i didnt tell him bcus i didnt wanna ruin our special night but he even told me i did ruin it and i was sorry for being a bitch to him bcus of my depression.so we talked still we werent official even tho i had been wanting to b with him since last year..we had our first slow dance and my god i sung to him it was real special to me i was really happy..he made me real happy he made me feel special and i loved his personality and i started falling for him...i fell so hard that i considered him as my bf to my friends and me and him laughed and did lots together he would give me piggy ride backs and hickies and every time we met after every class and wallked each other to class and i appreciated him i gave him my devotion i gave him everything i had i did everything for him i did what i could to make him happy and i gave him all my support i motivated him to b a better person to do good in skool and b someone in life i believed in him.ppl kept telling me shit about him i didnt wanna believe them bcus i trusted him but all this time he was stabbing me on the bac and did hurtful shit to me it hurt me but i still stayed with him i stayed after he had hurt me i kept forgiving him time after time he kept fucking up and he promised he wasnt gunna fuc up and he did multiple times and i forgave him all the time..then he was telling me he loved me and shit and how he missed me and that he was loyal to me wen wasnt he was having me looking stupid out here wen i was defendin him and believing all his lies..

Chloee

October 17, 2016 @ (Findlay )

Tags: #saebreakupstprys

Me and my boyfriend has been together for 9 months. When we started dating to me it was more about looks but not all relationships start with a heart full of feelings. But the longer we were together the more I started to fall for
Him we would spend every weekend together at first it was awkward but we started getting really close to the point where he was the first one I would go to when I was having a bad day or problem. We would talk from the minute we woke up to the minute we would go to bed. We had our arguments but what relationship doesn't. I was 14 he was the first guy I ever Truley loved. We had a lot of problems with me snapchating other boys he thought it was something more than what it was. It was jealously that killed our relationship even though we fought a lot about it I was so blinded by something I thought was love that I never imagined us breaking up. We had plans for the future at the age of only 14 to other people they will look at it and say that's kids for you. But I think I really did love him one day he texted me and said it was over. He had said that before but never ment it. But this time it was diffrent. He didn't talk to me after that he just kept saying we would talk about it that weekend that weekend we met up at the fair we talked about it I kept saying sorry and he kept saying "I can't" "I'm sorry but I can't" he stood up because he has to leave and gave me a long hug. And said he was sorry. I sobbed in his arms and told him I didn't want to go he said he had to. He hasn't talked to me since. I've tried to reach out to him and he says he can't go back. How come I still cry myself to bed. But he can't she's a tear to a girl he said he loved a girl who he was with for 9 months. I get scared that I will never find that feeling again. Someone so perfect. I'm scared to love.

Jade

October 15, 2016 @ (Louisiana )

Tags: Baby break up

Wish I could make a long story short but I was with my child's father for 3 years he was like first everything , love of my life but little did I know he was cheating on me. It broke my heart cause now I have your baby and it's still not enough to at least you try to make something with with us get your family straight before moving on. So he got me a ring help me get car we took family pictures and everything. While our family picture #the(hislastname)... He then post his new li boo. We technically didn't breakup so I spent months looking for closure. But now I'm in a good place with everything but he stuck on I want him so he choose not to deal with me and my child doesn't even know her dad it's sad but touching he chooses to tend to his life and let his daughter grow in front his eyes. I think out of the whole break up that's the part I won't ever let go of because I know the feeling of growing up with no father but for him to say some of the things he says as mother of his child.. He literally watched me struggle to take care of her , just to see me hurt.. Still wanna know why he is so mad because He cheated and I basically expressed my feelings in messed up ways but I feel as if what's worse the having a baby for somebody who you loved and they never loved you back (let's talk about kick in the face , right)

Broken

October 12, 2016 @ (Australia )

Tags: Badbreakup

We met a year ago, the second I saw him I knew he was going to become a part of my life somehow, I was right 4 months in and we where inseparable, we started living together right away and life was a fairy tale, we would go away on beautiful beach vacations, never running out of things to talk about, or laugh about. We where the same person, we where each other's person, soulmates.

But there was another side to my love story and that was he had a family, I knew he was having problmes with his wife and he told me it was over, he had a two year old who he loved dearly, and ex that I soon learned was pregnant, I was in shock but I loved him so much, I decided at that point I would stick by him as long as he was open and honest and communicated with me every step of the way. That did happen for about 3 months, but then I got pregnant and we decided to abort our child, weeks after that my mind couldn't understand why my soulmate was ok with having kids with someone he didn't even like and with me the idea was so outrageous, at that point he stared hiding calls from his ex and emails and became more and more distant, it all came to a crashing end a month after that. I blocked his phone and cut him off but he creeped back in and I let him not once but twice, the second time he seemed different he told me he saw a shrink, he told me I was his path, his life and no matter what he will never hurt me again, we went away and spent a beautiful weekend together, he reconnected with my family, moved back in, and life seemed normal again, in the. Ack of my mind looking back I was never fully at ease, I was scared and my institution was right, just two weeks after hat beautiful getaway he started acting different again, not open, changing plans, but this time I tried fighting for it, how could this be happening again? I asked my self, not wanting to believe it, but it all came crashing down on me this weekend, he was missing all weekend, I was again in the dark, feeling alone and rejected, he kept giving me hope that he was coming home to talk, and as I sat and waited for what seemed like an eternity he never came, but instead I got an email saying he can't do this and is never coming back, 4 lines is all I got from him all he thought I was worthy of receiving, frantic I tried calling and to my disbelieve he had blocked my phone number. Now every day I can't stop replaying the last two weeks, what did I miss, why was I so stupid, how will I ever recover or love again.