Sadlonelyconfused

May 07, 2013 @ (San Francisco)

Tags: Crush, first, kiss, bad, relationship, teenagers, dumb, love

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I have had a crush on this girl sinse the first grade, it started off as us hating each other but it was one of those cute kid cover up things. In middle school there were other girls I hooked up with, other girl friends, so I forgot about this girl for a long time. After dealing with a fair amount of drama with other girls, I started to have feeling for this girl again, this is by the time puberty has hit us both and she became more than just the girl I liked, she became beautiful, so other guys started hitting on her too. Around this time me and he started getting flirty, this lasted for a while until I asked her out, but she said no because she felt like we were too close as friends and she didn't want to loose me. So I was heart broken or whatever but I bounced back and everything was fine between us. We texted all summer and saw each other a few times, it almost felt like we were together, but we weren't. I got over her and started focusing on my studies so for a while all I did was study and party, everything was going fine, I was happy. Then my best female friend told me that she and my old crush were talking and that she found out that she kind of liked me but was going to wait for me to ask her out. So I waited, partied more, and eventually got around to asking her out, again, and she said yes. That marked the start of our month line awkward excuse of a relationship. I was her first boyfriend, and her first kiss, which she was extremely nervous for, so once we kissed I thought everything would turn around and that she would loose her shyness, the thing ruining our relationship. I didn't work, she and her friend started fighting and their fight was affecting out relationship. Spring break rolled around and I had only kissed her one day, on several occasions though, infact we made out. I was planning to hang out with her during spring break but she was out of town the whole time. The last weekend of spring break I was so exited to see her the following Monday. When I go to school I found out that her fight with her friend had gotten worse, they would even look a each other. That day I decided that I Was going to talk to her and either figure out why everything was going the way it was going or break up with her. Before I could do it I checked with my female friend and she had told me that my girlfriend had told her that she wasnt ready for a telationship and that she wanted it to end but she was to nervousness and shy to do it herself, so knowing that I ended it. I felt awful, I picked up smoking again that night and sat on my roof singing sad songs, what a movie cliche. Later people started saying that she just used me to get a first kiss and I was devastated because I thought she liked me. In a spiral of sadness I started smoking too much weed to feel happy again, which was fun while it lasted but now I'm broke. So I've been a sad, bitter, broke, lonely wreck. She seems like she moved on immediately, she's happy, and never regarded it, but I still feel empty inside because I don't know how to be happy again like I was before we got together. She said maybe she would be open to trying a relationship with me again next year but I can't hold on that long, even though I'm afraid I will and this silent sufference will last until then. Sigh... Where some weed when I need it.

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Turtlebrain

July 17, 2013

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I am so sorry. Nobody deserves to be used like that. I know how you feel. My ex-boyfriend of a year and a half now did the same thing to me. He told me he loved me, and then broke up with me because he became interested in my mortal enemy and told me the only reason he dated me was because he wanted to be like his best friend.

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John

July 14, 2013

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My ex destroyed me and yet I made a promise to wait 5 yrs to make sure in my heart so as to not regret a possibility to be with her.. It has been 3 yrs 8 months

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Lonelylife Long

June 06, 2013

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Hey,i feel really sorry for you,that girl did hurt you i can understand,but you are saying you can't wait till next year when she will try on you again,why is that?,if you love her truly,then my question is why not?distance and time is like an exam to test you on how strong your love is,that is the biggest issue with boys to my experience,i don't understand why you can't wait if you love the girl truly,not only to you,just genrelly k,try to move on,think about yourself,wonder in your heart,i am sure you'll come up with something great,try,i am also a girl who is trying to move on from a hell like breakup,you also try =) Goodluck to you and All like us !!!

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louie

May 23, 2013

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Except for all the kissing.

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louie

May 23, 2013

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I'm sorry for you, but this same thing has happened to me not to long ago.

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