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October 13, 2009 @ (don't matter)

There was this girl. I had known her for years and years. I met her in 5th grade and ever since then we became friends. We wouldn't talk much but we'd always have something to say to each other. We grew up...her becoming gorgeous day by day and me realizing how much this girl knows me. We'd literally sit for hours talking about our lives and our beliefs. She had a cold outside, but inside she was warm and sweet as sugar. She went out with my best friend at one time and I didn't mind. I always felt she would come back to me. So I waited. 2 long years I waited until finally all those times of going to her house to have sandwiches got to me, all those times of sitting in class cracking on everyone else got to me, all those times of hanging out and generally loving each others presence got to me......I fell in love...or so I thought. I felt perfect. Everything was right. Just being in her presence took away all my demons, my frustrations, my unwavering pathetically insignificant life. I felt like a person in front of her. Like I mattered. I fell in love with my dream girl.

But then things got different. She went to college and hooked up wit some dude...She swore it was a mistake and that it was the first time she had gotten drunk. My dumbass believed her. Why? Because I believe in HER and ME...together. I told her we'd work through this. A couple months later, she told me she had to break it off because her parents didn't approve of me even though they had known me my entire life. They thought I was unpredictable and was going no where in life just because I wasn't becoming a doctor. She told me her parents didn't approve and I believed her. We broke up and God did it fuckin hurt. I couldn't talk to her, email her, nothing. She said her parents knew about us and were making sure I didn't call her. I lost touch with her. My best friend told me he went to go see her to console her because he knew we were both going through a hard time. He came to my place afterwards and TO MY FACE told me that nothing happened. After that, I went to India.

When I came back, I lost my soul, my heart, and my general appreciation for love. My best friend, who has known me just as long as she did, tells me that the day he went to go see her...something did happen. I was a broken man. In one swift move, I lost any connection to my love and my true friend. I cursed her for breaking my heart and for doing something this cruel. As for my best friend, I forgave him with my brain but not my heart. Both of them hurt me in ways I didn't know humans could be hurt. I had done no harm to any of them. I showed them love when everyone else showed hate.

The story goes on. My best friend went on...back to his old girlfriend. She forgave him and they moved on. And for her...she has a new boyfriend. A douche. Some fuck who will probably end up worse off.

My entire perception of people changed that day. I don't know if I should put more trust in strangers or in friends. At least strangers won't lead you on when they fuck your shit up.

I'll admit. I had my faults. Maybe I was going too fast with it and I jumped into things. but I truly felt this was it. My dumbass never felt so stupid in my entire life. I should've calmed down and played it slowly. She told me it wasn't gonna work, but I told her we'd make it work. I just never knew I was the only one workin at it.

I've had so much shit hit me in my life. Car accidents, fist fights, fights at home, fights with friends, broken bones, shattered eyes, surgeries, deaths, fires, rejection, loneliness, isolation...and yet. the only thing that ever REALLY hurts me...is a broken heart.

Chris

October 13, 2009 @ (California)

Tags: heartbreaking

This isn't an especially exotic breakup, but it certainly broke my back. When I was an intern, I took a weekend call pretty early ... on a Friday night, so the amount of trauma we saw was very heavy (idiots drinking/driving, getting stabbed, etc). That 28hr shift was pretty much the worst night of my life b/c of:

- my first end of life discussion w/a family
- getting my chief to come in was like pulling teeth
- a couple of traumas came in basically DOA
- my medstudent, despite being warned that it was going to be a tough night and that he should read up on diagnosing traumatic injury, decided to read up on wiring of cautery knives ...
- ... then had the nerve to cuss me out for not treating him like he knew anything, despite him never reading, never knowing anything about patient treatment other than pain level
- the floor nurses refused to take verbal orders, making me actually walk up to the floor and write it in the patient chart (no matter if I was in the middle of a Code Blue or not)
- in fact, I got into lots of arguments with nurses about retarded crap
- the next morning, I was so busy in the ER, the oncoming resident had to see all my patients, making me look like a total douche
- I didn't sleep
- I didn't eat after lunch
- hell, I didn't even get to sit down at ALL that night

So I finally get home, almost getting into an accident on the way home b/c of exhaustion, and I get into bed and crash. 10hr later I wake up, still wiped out, hungry as hell, and figure the only thing that can make me feel not like shit is talking to my [long-distance] girlfriend of 20 months.

Well, literally just after I said the words "I don't think I'll ever have a worse night in my life," she cuts me off and says that she doesn't think we should date anymore. I was so exhausted I could barely put up a fight. I just slept for another 24hrs, and didn't eat until 2 days later, when I came back to work. Absolutely heartbreaking.

It was at that point that my realization dawned: being a doctor SUCKS; THIS is what I busted my ass, all my life, my dream, for???

Stupid

October 13, 2009 @ (PA )

Tags: stupid, financial

So my dirty ex-girlfriend was a year older than me. She wanted me to attend her college no matter what. I was receiving athletic scholarhships to many schools but not hers. Despite the advice from EVERYONE I knew, i declined free school to go with her. She then fucked a bunch of guys then broke up with me in the first semester. After that, she blew/fucked mostly everyone i knew. She then got pregnant by a random fellow.. That all doesn't bother me as much as my monthly school loans.

Rick

October 13, 2009 @ (TX)

Tags: divorce, kid, life, sucks

After talking to this girl online for a year, we finally get to go out and things go great. Not long after going out with her another time, she tells me she's gotten back with her ex....even though she said she wouldn't. Normally a story would end there, but no. I continue talking to her because I'm not sure how her relationship with her ex is (I assume it's already bad considering what she told me at that time.) Next thing I know, she marries him. Then, she becomes pregnant with his kid, to which her ex leaves her and they divorce (an ugly one, considering the ex was trying to blackmail her into staying with her). Instead of continuing my relationship with her, I end up being her "counselor" during her situation and pretty much ended any hope I had with her.

Patrick

October 13, 2009 @ (Maryland)

Tags: facebook, internet

So I had this bitch of a girlfriend back in college, but I, being an easy going type of guy, always made excuses for her and we stayed together much longer than we should have. Anyway, we had decided to go see a concert one weekend. Now the Monday before the concert a friend of mine, who had been battling cancer for 3 years, passed away. The funeral was scheduled the day of the concert so I called my gf to explain that I can no longer go. She gets furious about how she already bought the tickets and it is to late to return them. The coup de grâce, however, was when she coldly stated "I don't see why his funeral is so important, you weren't even friends on Facebook." I dumped her there and then on the phone. Now the night before the concert she calls me again, asking me when I'll be there tomorrow for the concert. Confused, I repeated that our relationship was over and I wasn't coming. She, however, thought I was joking. To help her understand, I told her to log onto Facebook (something I rarely do) and I changed our relationship status right in front of her, saying "well it's on Facebook now so it must be true" and hung up.

Methadonor

October 13, 2009 @ (San Antonio, at the time)

Tags: example1

i come home from work and take a nap. me and my wife just had a baby so i was wrecked. i wake up from my nap to go into the living room to see my wife butt ass naked on cam. on the pc screen i see some dudes dick on cam. i guess they knew how to party. i look down and the baby was sleeping up next to her just out of cam range. she giggles and i say fuck this shit and leave to the bar with friends. i come home and ask her if she was all taken care of or something sarcastic like that. she tells me the baby wasnt mine (the baby was the only reason i married her) and that she was cheating on me (i figured that much). we split up that night. fuck that shit right? a few months later i get a letter from the state wanting me to pay child support. because of this i will never get married again. just not worth it.

E.e

October 13, 2009 @ (NY)

Tags: evil

MY ex and I were together for over 4 years, married for three. We bought a house together just 8 months ago. My ex pressed for this house even though I did not want it. I did EVERYTHING to get it, and put myself under so much stress that I ended up having a breakdown and losing my well paying job. About a month later my ex tells me "I can't deal with you like this. I have been thinking about leaving for over a year now, and oh, yeah, get out of the house."
That bastard waited until I got him the house (HIS Credit sucked) and lost my job before telling me he thought it was over.

Bryan

September 25, 2009 @ (nowlans nigga)

Tags: nipples

So here's the score. I broke up like the rest of you lame asses, but then i thought I had a chance with my ex. I mean, it's like every story I've ever read. I should have known better, right? So, I took my ol' lady to the He Is Legend concert like she used to like, and guess what? She apparently doesn't like them any more. Gayer than AIDs right? Anyways, I guess girls like you for something, then break up with you for the same thing. I mean, what is so wrong with working nights? Tracy came up to me and straight said, "Fuck You" to me the last time I saw her. That's intense. I don't wear too much of that shit on me, but that one stuck. Her friends came up to me and told me that I'm the biggest asshole in th world. I mean, it's not too far off, but I've been trying. I don't know what to do. I can't sleep. I can't eat. I feel like the biggest GAY, ever. How does a female wreck you like that?? So, I was told to check this site out by my friend, and I thought that I would make up a story, but I just had the juices flow. I hope there are creepy chics out there that are reading this and ready to pounce. I mean, what the fuck is wrong with hugs? I don't even want a girlfriend. I'm never home and I never really have time, but a girl to spoon with on Sunday is my requisite for a girlfriend. Grr. I love venting on websites that are anonymous, syke. Anyways, this is probably the gayest thing I've ever done, but I will keep on venting and pretending like this doesn't matter to me.... but it does.

Charlotte

September 22, 2009 @ (Dewey Beach)

Tags: life

boys and their video games. unnamed_boy wouldn't stop playing that warcraft game. so much that it was killing our relationship. i couldn't even get him on the phone to break up with him. so i logged in and made my own char, then i dumped him on there