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Mackenzie

April 17, 2016 @ (on group text)

Tags: bad breakup, depression breakup

I was recently diagnosed with depression and I was very suicidal.my boyfriend said he would stick with me and try almost everything to make me feel better- well and month went and I got on my period, to make it worse he put it on group message with my friends. He said this "I'm done with the relationship. I'm too stressed out. Maybe once this is all resolved we can think about it again. If you need need something you can tell me in person. Otherwise I'm done. I will be leaving this chat soon. " I am so heartbroken I thought he was the one for me.In conclusion my depression has gotten worse significally.

Ava Claudia

April 05, 2016 @ (Cookeville )

Tags: Bad Break up

So I was talking to the same guy for 2 years. Cause I wanted to take it slow so maybe it will work. After two and half years of talking we dated. We loved like 3 minutes away from each other. He was everything I dreamed of. I was everything he dreamed of. So we spent 24/7 together. Then like a year later from happiness he cheats on me. I forgive him cause I love him a lot. So then it happens 9 more times. I finally left him. The bad thing was three of those nine were my close friends. And one of them were my step sisters. The rest I didn't know. I was so hurt. He would call and text me saying sorry. But this time sorry didn't cut it. To this day a year later he calls and text me everyday. It gets on my nerves. I have not dated anyone since him. I am waiting for the right one. I can't get hurt like that ever again. Cause I was totally crushed. I don't trust anyone but myself. And I want something real. And I have found that

Ava Claudia

April 05, 2016 @ (Cookeville )

Tags: Bad Break up

New

March 25, 2016 @ (Anywhere)

Tags: #surviving

I was in an emotionally abusive relationship. I never was interested in dating until 9 months ago. I am 20 years old and I am young, but I fell in love. To me he was perfect until one day he wasn't. He told me I wasn't attractive enough for him, that I was stupid, a whore, worthless, etc. None of which is true. My friends were confused what I saw in him, and I will not try to sound conceited, but I knew I was much better looking. He made his own insecurities mine, to hide how he really felt. I was so depressed, I lost almost 15 bs. I was never big. I was 5'6" and went from 122 lbs to 106 lbs in three months. It was unhealthy. The first time we broke up I was devastated. I didn't eat or sleep, my anxiety was so bad it overtook my life. I was so desperate to make things right that I drove him further away. There was a point where I couldn't leave my bed and my roommates were genuinely concerned about me. A month later we got back together. It was beautiful. I was so happy and he said he loved me all the time. However 2 months later, it crashed again. I am OKAY. I am here to tell you it gets better. We broke up two days ago, I cried yesterday, but that's okay. I feel liberated. I realized that yes, we love each other, but we both are too immature to be together at this point. Sometimes when a relationship ends, you need to take a step back and really look at it. He holds grudges, he mentally abused me, he never made sacrifices for me, which made me resent him. I realized that sometimes love isn't enough. Sometimes you realize that no matter how desperate you are to make things work, they just don't. I know it's hard to accept, heck I am struggling too. If it is meant to be it will be. Maybe it's just not the right time, but I can tell you that once you hit rock bottom you can go nowhere else, but up. I was at rock bottom, I lived and someone I am okay. I haven't bombarded him with texts begging him to take me back or whine how it isn't fair. I simply said I wouldn't contact him unless he contacted me and he hasn't. I will not reach out again. My best advice to anyone going through what I survived, as much as it sucks and as much as you want to reach out and be with them, cut them off. Take a real look at your relationship. Do you want to go back to it? Is it worth it? If it is, than fight for it and if it works, that's amazing, if it doesn't at least you'll know you gave everything you had. I can promise you it isn't easy, but it does get better.

Estf VLM

March 22, 2016 @ (200 Davisville ave)

Tags: Difficult break up..

I decided to write about how is my recently break up going. I know many of you are having the same situation as me, therefore I will explain how is my situation so you can understand me.

A year ago, 2015, I started dating a guy from a different culture, religion, way of thinking and more. We connected really well, at first it was like wonderland everyday, we talked for hours, went out, laughed, and more.. It felt like a real relationship full of confidence, truth, and more of it we respected each other. We did so many things together, I even started to learn his language, I changed so many things for him, The first 7 moths together were so perfect, I never though that he will change from one day to another.. He stated changing day by day, sometimes i felt like he was so bored to be with me, but other times i felt like he was so happy, I was so confused, even tho i never told him what i felt, he sometimes noticed i guess but never said a word. There were some days he came to me saying he wants to try a night with another girl, i swear he stabbed me every time he said that, but i couldnâ€™t do anything, all i did was laugh like it wasnâ€™t a big deal but it was. I hide so many times how i really felt because i didnâ€™t want him to worry or something. I remember even he told me he could thrown me if I do something wrong, and many times he told me that his friends will always come first than me, I mean I was his girlfriend right?, why would he say stuff like that.. It was just too much but i never payed attention because I did not want to lose him, and I did anyways.

Anyways, a week before he broke up with me, he was acting so weird, I knew there was something but like always I didnâ€™t pay attention. Indeed there was something, on a Tuesday, Jan 12, 2016, at 8pm he came to me and said he wanted to talk to me about something, there.. I knew he wanted to break up, my world just fall apart when he said it, he gave me some crazy reasons and I just played along. I couldnâ€™t believe what I was hearing.. Well after that, 3 days after I went to a party, and I remember i got so drunk, all because I found out he was already talking to another girl. IT BROKE MEâ€¦

A week after, he came again to me but not as he wanted to go back, he just wanted to make sure of some stuff, but neither of us could help it so we kissed, everything came back to HAPPINESS, only it was NOT.! He said I canâ€™t control myself around you but I want to still being like this, only not as a relationship, I first said alright letâ€™s try, but to be honest it wasnâ€™t enough for me, he was like that with me but also playing with another girl, so i tried to stopped it and until now i couldnâ€™t. I am still in the same situation, i feel like a stupid sometimes, thinking that he would change, but no, it is worse. he still is playing with that other girl, and I am still hurting.

I will never regret any of this, the only thing i regret is how blind I am.

Henrietta

March 22, 2016 @ (China)

Tags: painfullbreakupandstilllonging

We were together for months. He loved me deeply. For me? I love him so much and three months later after he broke up with me I am still in so much agony. It was a long distance relationship. I was going to come after a year since I am still in college. I was just asking for one year. Not ten years, not twenty three, not even three. Just one year. But somehow he kinda lost his grip. Until now, I really do not know why we just all of a sudden fell apart. And I could not understand why we cannot fight for us. He said he has his own life now and he can no longer run this marathon with me. Was I depending too much on him for emotional support because of depression from my family problems? Was I too needy or too clingy? But I promise I never complained when he was busy. I just do not know why or how he fell out of love for me. Every single day, I ask why. I wonder if he ever opens his Skype and reads my messages begging him for another chance. Now, I am about to graduate but I have no direction since the man at the end of the tunnel, well he is no longer there to keep his promise. I am just totally lost and miserable. But I am not mad. I do not resent him either. I am grateful for everything. I just want to be his girl and I would give my all. (Sorry for any typos.)

Kitty

March 14, 2016 @ (virginia)

Tags: Bad Break up

Well, I met this guy two years ago. We talked a lot. He asked me out and everything was great.. Except for the age difference. See to me and him age didn't matter. As long as there is love. But when I had to move in a different house hold I was forced to drop all contact with him. I had to disappear from him. Now. I'm back where I used to be and we found each other again.. Happiness and joy.. He asked me out again but at the time I had a boyfriend. So I broke up with the guy I was with and said yes to the one I loved. But everything is worse now. So I had this account on Facebook he didnt know I have and I decided to message him on it to see if he would flirt.. Well.. He did.. It hurt.. But I messaged him on Kik telling him I was going to bed and he said his phone was about to ddie but yet he was messaging my fake account.. I knew he was a liar. But I messaged him later on saying that the fake account was one of my best friends and he kept telling me it was nothing and pretty much my friend was lying. And I've realized now that every time I don't want to set him he "all of a sudden is " tired".. I know he's lying.. But every time I try to break up with him he gets so sad and it hurts me really bad. I love him I gave him my heart. I know that he can do a whole lot better than me. He can get someone older and a lot prettier..but he says he wants me.. If that's so.. Why does he cheat?

Nicole

February 28, 2016 @ (Usa)

Tags: Bad breakup,

I was head over heals for a guy in 2 of my classes. Being a super shy girl I didn't think we'd ever be together. Through a class project he asked to be partners then later from there we started dating. Literally happiest time of my life. We did everything together and we both agreed it felt like we'd be together for months and months because we clicked so well. 3 weeks into the relationship he broke up with me over text. His reason was that he may be transferring to another city to play football his junior year of highschool. Even though we are only sophmores and still and have 5 months before he would have to leave, he still decided he wanted to end things. He said some pretty hurtful things in the messages too. He hasn't talked to me in person since the day BEFORE we broke up, which wasn't even a week ago. Should i confront him about this or just leave things the way they are?

Jadine

February 14, 2016 @ (Sask)

Tags: sad, valentines day, asshole

It's quite funny actually, as I have already posted on this site before with a brief submission on Jan 28, 2014. My first post was about my first boyfriend. We ended up getting back together on and off for about another 8 months before things finally ended for good (thank god!)
Looking back, I don't know why I was so sad. I just think it was because we had dated for 2 years, and he knew me inside out. But I wasn't serious about him, I know I could never end up with someone like him. After the breakup, I didn't expect to get into a relationship for a long time, maybe years. But only a few short months later my dream guy came along, someone I never thought would notice me.
He was amazing; 6'4", incredibly handsome, polite, smart, sweet, funny. I was in shock. I don't know if I ever had anyone on such a high pedestal before. And he wanted me back. Life, at that time, seemed like a dream come true, and I think that's where I ruined myself. I made HIM my dream. But I loved him so much and I was still in awe of everything he did. And all was well until moving away to a different city so I could go to university after only 4 months of dating.
Things changed. He changed. His true colors came out while living together. A once caring, dreamy person became cold, distant and indifferent. I had gained 15 pounds in the 6 months after university, and it apparently caused a huge problem for him (as he told me- "I would treat you better if you were thinner"). He would only return some of my texts, and got annoyed of me easily. The first 5 months living together were difficult, feeling like I was always reaching for him and he was just pulling away. I cried all the time. Looking back, after moving in that's mostly what I did with my time.
We've been broken up for a month now, but still living together because we signed into a lease. I've been trying to keep it civil but he seems to like hurting me constantly. A day doesn't go by without some sort of remark like "I enjoy this place when you're not here" or "you're not going to lose weight just watching a show about vegetables". After we agreed to try and be friends. Obviously it's hardest for me as I still care a great deal and he doesn't care at all, but yet I still try. I wake up everyday knowing that there's just going to be another heartbreaking moment. And every so often I think back to how it was in the beginning, everything was so perfect. I didn't want it to end up like this. What helps me to keep moving forward is to look at his attitude, he's treating me like dirt. And for what? All I did in our relationship was want to grow our love into something huge, but he couldn't see my value. I ask him what went wrong, he comes up with minuscule excuses such as "you never made me a friendship bracelet when you said you would" or "you turned on the light when I was sleeping". It's all a sad excuse to hide behind the real truth that he's shallow, and that once he saw me for my real self, without the nice body and makeup and clothes, he decided I wasn't good enough anymore. And i'm so glad that i'm stronger than I was 2 years ago, because no i'm not as sad as I was then, I've grown. I still cry sometimes, but I have to remember that I have the good heart, and important attributes to make love last, and him not being able to see that is HIS problem.

Mark

February 14, 2016 @ (California)

Tags: breakup

While fixing our neighbors computer, I found a nude picture of my girlfriend of 22 years. I did not buy her explanation about the picture so I checked the messages on her phone. It turned out that she had been cheating on me with at least 3 other guys for at least several years, while going out of her way to keep me convinced that everything was fine.
When confronted, her only response was "so when are you going to move out?"